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Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Sunshine, and dreams...

So, here we are... Living in St. Croix, US Virgin Islands... The most far east island part of the United States.. only 1,200sum miles north of the equator.. and the sun is HOT!
We packed up and headed out for a journey of dreams. Well, just a dream of mine, but fortunately enough I have a husband whom loves me a whole lot and agreed to my plans.. which all couldn't have been possible with out his love and support ..
Let me start off my telling you all that living in paradise is WAY different then visiting, paradise...
the first week was more of a shock than anything else. Filled with anxiety and nervousness, I was worried everyday as to if I made the right choice or not...
After the first week past, and we are not settling nicely into week number three, I feel much better and comfortable with our surroundings. Danny has been more helpful and comforting then I could have ever imagined, and the love he has for me, as I sat there having a nervous break down, he calmed and soothed my nerves, reminding me that the Lord will never leave us.. And if this was my life dream to live here for a bit, then I should stop panicing and just enjoy the time while we are here...

Short term goals are how I've lived my life. I don't know how my experience in the Marine Corps would have gone if I didn't live leave date to leave date...

I also never wanted to be a woman that said, "I'm going to go here, I'm going to do that, I am gunna blah blah blah ... " and ends up sitting on her rump at home just imagining of what it would be like... Even if we are here for 2 mths, I still did it.. I still followed thru...

I feel as tho you never really know what a dream would be like, until you set out and did it.. Sometimes, it's not what you expected, and it's a great thing that you did it... So you know! So you know that's not what you want.. So you don't grow old saying "couldda ,shouldda, wouldda..." You grow old an say... Well , we planned accordingly and did everything we wanted to, when the time permitted us to!

Along this short little trip, I've been hearing a few good words to live by...
"I'd rather regret something I did, rather then something I never tried to do..."
a lot of people dont want to have any regrets in life... but sometimes there are periods of time where you go, "crap--- rewind!" --- an in those cases, you gotta tell yourself... at least i did it! at least i know, now!

and the other one, my wonderful mother-in-law told me in response to an email i sent her, where I was worried and scared about this journey... she said..
"could you imagine what the world would be like, if everyone had these really good ideas, and plans, but never pursued them?
How true is that??? where would we be?

Even tho it's still young in this move, I am so happy and blessed for the choice we made.. for the adventure we took, for the lessons we are learning... everyday brings a new lesson...

I know now, that I love Seattle! that i can't wait to go back! and I am planning on settling.. For this was my last big adventure I wanted to do before we had babies... Not to say that life ends at children, but all who has them.. can you agree it's a little more difficult???

SO, I wanna stick it out for a few more months.. maybe till June... life thru the winter season and work while it's busy.. and maybe head on back home to Seattle, to really start to settle down..maybe.. only Lord knows what we are doing next :o)
But we are starting our big list of all the things we wanna do before we leave!

What a wonderful life the Lord has given us...

pS- my advice to anyone reading.... may a list of short term goals... something feasible, or maybe not feasible... and find away to make that goal...

Our next big adventure! Is going to be a back backing trip thru Ireland... or Europe.. somewhere over there!

ta- ta for now, guys!
I'll try to keep you updated!

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1 comment:

  1. Yay! I was wondering when you were going to update!!! :)
    I hope that everything works out, no matter what decisions ya'll make. And you're right- you did it! Even if you only stay for a short period of time... you still did it :)

    (And yes... life doesn't get worse after kids... but it does change and get harder!) :) You can handle anything though ;)

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