I made an ass outta myself once again and lived the next 24 hours in a deep stage of regret and embarrassment.. I'm not quite sure what's happened to me in the past few years..
when drinking and being a good memory used to be my daily gig, and now I argue, and act ridiculous when ever I'm drunk... ???
I told Danny I don't want to drink with him anymore for that reason... We don't have fun.
I act like an ass, he gets upset with me.. then my drunk ass tries to rationalize with him my actions.. and then the next day I spend it feeling terrible and apologizing nonstop..
And to top it all off, my husband has the biggest heart.. he forgives an forgets by the time morning comes around (which almost makes me feel worse)
.....
I say that I quite drinking when we got married and I was in NC and he was in Cali..
I went from 4 to 5 times a week of being a drunk slob, to maybe a friday evening in the Barracks with my best friend sitting in front of our door sharing a bottle of wine....
I really like the change and not being hung over every morning...
But, now if I do drink occasionally- it's just rediculous, and I'm a dumb ass....
I have to remind myself to cut myself off- bcuz that look of disappointment on Danny's face is pretty much the worse feeling ever....
I love you MuNkY
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