for the last 2 weeks -- Danny and I have been in Chelan, WA @ his parents house on Lake Chelan... google it, if you dont know what it looks like... for sure the most breath taking place i've been on this earth!
Libby an Mike came up-- an later Mike's gf joined the fun...
Everyday our friends rolled thru -- played airsoft with danny & mike, floated on the lake, or laid in the sun... It's so great to have that type of environment for a while...I'm even more grateful that Danny's parents are so warm an loving that they allow for visitors quite often, and even offer to feed them-- whether it was a planned drop by, or not...
I know sometimes it can be a bit much to have that many people over to your house at once, but they were so good about it.. :o) all they asked for was a few moments of just family time... and thats exactly what we got...
for the last 2-3 days, it was just the family...
it was the best 2-3 days i have had in a long long time...laying in the sun, playing in the water, sitting in a circle watching dad act out "Fankenstein" in the game of Guesstures,,,
I got to spend so much time with Libby- either driving around, at the bars, or just laying on a towel in the grass... amazing how much I miss her company-- and wit, already... " I just called to say hello!-- HeRrOw!" *hahahah* wishing I live closer to her, I have to just wait for our next visit...
Michael brought home his gf, Jana for the family to meet.. the woman is the sweetest woman... so soft spoken, but a person of her own self... young and excited about life still :o) much like me and everyone else i love in life :o) -- I feel as tho we hit it off, I hope we did at least... we did on my end of things :o) -- I know situations in life can throw some crazy curve balls at chya.. but you make the best out of any situation.. an thats exactly what we did... and I love her! I hope to see her again-- as i told her... w/ or w/o mikey-- I wanna see her!
Wine tasting, fireworks, home cooked meals, sitting around a table with a family that you love.... bestfriends making tie-dye shirts for the 4th of July... going to church for the 1st time in 4 mths... and most of all... being home after an adventure to St. Croix!
The last two weeks have been some of the best times.... now that it's time to get serious-- I pray that the Lord stays by my side... and helps in our paths-- as i know he does.. I have a job interview on wednesday.. for a job that i have been really excited about.. I pray that it is the right step for me....
my focus is a little sharper-- i have a short term goal- doesnt feel practical.. but i know i can do it... jsut a matter of taking the steps... just like our move to STX...
Happy to be home... LOVING our new home with Lynnie.. she did a GREAT job picking it out...
Makes me love the friends I have... they are one in a million.. makes me wonder why I ever put myself around people who dont care that they are in my life or not...
ON THAT NOTE!
Be a good friend.. be someone that you love... do what you can for anyone around you... become "you-centric, not me-centric" remember that extending an offer to help -- even if they dont take it, shows them that you care.... listen when they speak, and get that d*mn look off your face like you are thinking of the next thing you want to say-- during the entire time they are talking.. , When you rant-- listen to their rant, When you have an issue-- talk about it... and get over it...
I love the people in my life... but there are those who if I had to choose, based on the outline of their personality-- I wouldn't care to even know them....
WHICH BRINGS ME TO ANOTHER POINT---
Is my bubble made of mirror? Do I only see what I think I am? Am I a different person to others then I think I am???
How does one become humble? I ask the Lord all the time, when I catch myself being caddy-- HUMBLE HUMBLE HUMBLE... love, respect, honor each an every person you come across, becuz the Lord does.. and we should to..
but how do i become humble? do i just keep focusing on it?? keep asking for it??? does it eventually consume enough of my thoughts that I become a more considerate, loving individual????
at what point, does a persons TRUE personality change???
ANOTHER THOUGHT
I am just like everyone else.
I'm self-centered, I look at myself in a reflection of a glass window passing and say to myself "you're fat, why do you eat so much, ugh" ... or-- " i look nice today, i really like the way i did my hair"... just like every other girl... When I see a window, or a mirror coming up as I walk along-- I look down at my feet and deliberately not look.. stop being self absorbed.. stop thinking about yourself... (well, myself)... stop worrying about me... me me me.. me me me... why is it ALWAYS about me....
Lord I ask you to focus my attention on others... and love others... forget about myself, and love you.....
I do love you.... I do think of others... I do catch myself being "me-centric" and focus on being "you-centric..."
at what point-- does my "core-personality" actually change....????
at what point????
just some thoughts
gnight -glo
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