St. Croix

I am suffering thru the grooling process of... waiting.

I have an interview via Skype for a stylist position at The Buccaneer Resort in St. Croix VI...

I am not sure if this is a smart move to take .. Everything has to be just right before I take that step and drag my husband out there...

*sigh*

Christmas. With the most wonderful inlaws a gal could ask for.

Across the frigid water lays a sleeping dragon dusted in the season's white dew.
In the morning, you see two, as the water dares not ripple, the mirrored image of God's master piece takes your breath away.
The sound of Christmas music fills the empty corners of the cozy home while the decorations across the house bring decades of memories with each passing step.
From ornaments from Germany to hand made table runners each piece has a story of it's origin.

I love this time of year. So much reflection and serenity.
I miss my family back home, and can remember the smell of Diane baking cookies or the look of the house when you pull up at night... Four feet of snow on the ground and lights from the living room reflecting across the yard...
It's Diane's favorite time of year. She spends all day finding a place for every item she has. All arranged accordingly... There may not be generations of memories at my home, but they're are generations to come with the memories she has made...

I wish I knew where some of the ornaments are that my brother and I grew up with... some of the memories from when Brian and I were little... but I am sure they are packed away in some box to be forgotten... just like many memories from that time....

I remember being so young and pulling out the Christmas tree from the attic while mom was at work, and having it all set up... One year, she worked at Bright World Candle and we had the prettiest Christmas tree on the whole block.. each layer of branches had it's own scene on it... w/ fake snow and people skating ...

I wonder what my children are going to remember....?

Until then, I will take in all the wonderful memories that we are making during this Christmas season....


Merry Christmas to you all... Where ever it may be--- that you all are....

facebook. cont.

it feel so great to be off fb for the last 3 days...
Just not havin' it there to constantly check.. it's a crazy addiction an I am sooo happy to not have it..
wonder how many days I can go with out it :o)

facebook.

I deactivated my account for a bit- gunna try an last a few days..
Just would like some time away from the computer-- and fb sometimes just takes of too much time...
Gotta get my Christmas shopping done, and maybe go for a run!
Lots of Love
-glo

frusterated.

Ever feel like you've made the wrong choice for work?

I was laying in bed last night and couldn't stop thinking, what if I don't want to do this for the rest of my life...

I wonder if I am just being ridiculous and blowing things out of proportion....

But what if this isn't what I want to do.. all that money for school, and I may just thro it all away??

Maybe I just have to find my niche...where I belong???

I hope this is just a temporary mood..

AGGHHH!!! GREATNESS!!

I woke up at 550 am today, made my husband a lunch for work and HIT THE GYM FOR TWO HOURS with Lynnie!

I feel fantastic! ya know, we all ate non-stop this weekend be it that Thanksgiving was amazing!!

and too many pieces of pie on too full of a stomach doesnt help either..

So I am setting a goal this week-- to eat right and PT!! I can do this!

So my weekend was amazing..

So many things to talk about but most importantly..

I got trashed with my sister-in-law..

Which lead to some good bonding i think..

Great conversation all night (from what I can remember)

I probably shared too much, but I have no regrets !!

It's great to get to know her, I am so thankful for the crazy events of that night..

and my wonderful hubby that was our DD :o)

which- I did not return the favor the following night due to being a waist of hung over space, but Libby had his back! (THANX LIBBY! :o) )

I'm just feeling so optimistic about this day and this week!

Lord, give me the strength to stay on track, find my patience and be a loving person to those who love me. I know I have troubles sometime with my actions, but I pray that you will give me the strength and guidance this week to preserver thru the side tracks and stay focused on that tasks at hand!

Thanksgiving...

What a wonderful time to spend with your family.

At dinner dad (Danny's dad) asked us all to share what we were thankful for...

I was the last to share, and knew I would choke up- I was thankful for the choices I have made in life, the people I've met and all the roads I took to have me sitting right here in the home of my husbands parents.. As I teared up, choked up and mumbled thru the rest of my thankfulness I hope the message was properly shown ... I am so thankful for the wonderful job Mike and Mary Sherer did of raising such an incredible man. Who makes me want to be a better person and lights up my life.. The whole family truly is a blessing to be a part of.

I'm very thankful for my family as well. My mother has the biggest heart (sometimes haha) with so much talent. I am very proud of her for making steps in the right direction!

www.zazzle.com/runamuck

Dad and Diane and Brian all played amazing rolls in my life helping me thru tuff teens and setting me up for success.. If if it wasnt for all 4 of my I wouldn't be able to do half the things in life that I have...

I love you all..

And Happy Thanksgiving!

Island Boy by Kenny Chesney

So while driving to church on Sunday morning by myself... I was pondering the future plans of my life.

I don't know why we've decided we are settling down already?

I know Danny feels like he has been away from home for too long, and I'd hate to think that I will be pulling him away from home...

But at the same time.. we have the rest of our lives to "grow old and raise a family"

But right now-- at 25 years old, with no children, no real debt, and 2 1/2 educations between the two of us.. why aren't we out there exploring the world?

I want to live on a tropical island, I want to visit the glaciers of Alaska, I want to live out of a suite case for a year- or back pack thru Ireland for a few mths..

I think people get comfortable and want to settle down, naturally.. and "plant some roots"

But as I was driving to church it dawned on me... That's NEVER been what I wanted...

I want to be a nomad.. I want to travel, rest, pick up and move again!

I don't want all this stuff right now... We don't need it all right now..

So here's my idea.. We take a storage container- pack up ALL our stuff, and head out for a few years.. :o)

Just gotta make sure the husband is on board!

But we'll see----

feelin' fat-- NOT phat...

The winter blues is really kicking in these past few mths..

I seem to be at a constant rate of weight gain, and not seeing any self control to do something about it, or stop it.

People say, "well, you were probably a lot more active in the Marine Corps- so you gained weight bcuz you got out..."

well- sorry to burst your little bubble, but i was NOT active. my shop didn't go PT all the time, and I don't think a lot else has changed.

Aside from the fact that I'm a year older-- and my metabolism has gone down .. that is the only really effect that is playing here..

I really outta do somthing..

Between feeling fat, flabby, my hair color isnt what i want, my hair is fried (that was my doing :o( ) and i'm super pale...

Not feelin' very sexy..

Gotta get outta this rut..

gotta do something..

gotta go somewhere...

need a change...

wanna move...

far far away..

leave all this junk behind..

on that note- how the hell did I aquire so much junk????

o well- tomorrow is a new day :o)

and I'm going to try and start it at 0545 at the gym.. HA- we'll see.

Besaid Island - Final Fantasy X - Original Sound track (look it up)

The rain often calms the nerves. Not that I'm nervous, but it's an instinctive thing I believe. I woke up and realized it was drizzling outside, and I instantly felt calm but yet inscrutable.

Haven't blogged it for a while, I wonder why that is? Does the change of season make a person feel less "thought conscience"

This qtr is almost over. Working as much as I can at the new spa.. I like it alright. There woman that work their are pretty rad. Everyone has this down to earth side of them, where "being chill" is the atmosphere. I love that side of it. Just like any job, it gets "AGH!" sometimes but it's pretty awesome no matter what's going on.

Taking 3 classes next qtr, hopefully it will prepare me more for business mngmnt. But we'll see.

Headed to Chelan for Thnxgiving, coming home the night of black Friday.. Hopefully all the crazy Seattlites will be out shopping and NOT driving thru the mtns when we are!

Purchased our snowboarding season passes to www.stevenspass.com so we are pretty stoked about that- its forecasted to be a cRaZy WiNtEr! *crosses fingers*

I woke up this morning with that taste of being "hung over" in my mouth.... But I didn't drink last night?? Weird.

I'm not feeling very insightful.

My brother is thinking about coming out here for Christmas.. that would be super awesome, seeming how he couldn't make it out here for the wedding...

So *fingers crossed* I hope he pulls it together and finds his way out here...

I think I'm moody.

Short fuze...

Irritable lately...

*shrug* eh- o well.

I'll live.

I have to clean the how now.

Bye.

sudden bliss

so- ever have those days.. you're just sitting there, and a wave of happiness rushes over you??
I'm just sitting here at work, chatting with Kell Bell and all of a sudden I am feeling super giddy and happy, I just want to run up to everyone I know and hug 'em ..
weird.
I miss my hubby. He's at school. I will see him tonight, but that doesn't change the fact that right now we are not together..
I am so proud of him and the things he's doing, and the places he's going to go. It's nice to be married to such a hard worker- he motivates me to try and keep up with him.
I went an saw my class advisor today and picked out the classes for nest qtr. I'm going to be talking 3 of them, and super excited, it's just more steps I'm taking in order to open up my spa..
Solas Anam Salon & Spa...

some day- it will be mine.. o yes, it will be mine...
\m/

coffee in the morning---

Got up at 0530 today-- went to the gym.. so far so good- Lynnie and I are keeping a great pace, routine, and schedule...

I laugh because I'd drag myself to the gym the last 4 years an to PT.. but since I've been out- I'm so eager to be there and the desire to keep a good sched is so strong...

today I was going to roll over and do it at lunch.. (keep in mind, i dont have to be up till 1000 for class... so this is all for Lynnie :o) - an myself)

But after I text her and we agreed to go during chow, I found a burst of energy, and luckily she was feeling it too- so we met up anyway...

I find it funny that on some days it takes some convincing to get myself outta bed that early on my own terms.. So I tell myself.. "Self, you can go back to your PRECIOUS sleep in an hour- you'll be right back here, like you never left"..

and i know DAMN WELL.. that i'm not going back to bed..

I get home, and I am a ball of energy and excitement!

I made myself a pot of coffee (real men drink black coffee, just remember that when you sissy girls get your 9 scoops of sugar an calories !)

But the smell consumes my little apartment and I feel instantly relaxed...

Flash backs of last winter come rushing in like a fleet of horses...

-- my shop got introuble so we had to be in at 0600- but my gunny didnt trust us , so we did the whole 15 pri routine... well after cutting it close a few times, i started to get up at 0500 an be at work by sometimes qtr to 6... Leaving only me, the high pri marine from midcrew and the civilians....

I'd fill my cup full of black coffee and sit in the back office with the civi's and listen to the stories.. most of them are retired an working for CACI the last 15 years...

I miss em/ I miss em all....

So- now, I have to get ready for school.. b/c that's my next goal..

Goals are what get you thru in life.. and when they are too big to wrap your mind around.. say it like my father does "Glo, how do you eat an elephant? ... One bite at a time...."

So this is my bite-- one class at a time.. one day at a time..

Life- i'll see ya when I meet up with ya.. but I got too much to think about to worry about you right now :)- i'm just gunna live ya today :)

Have a great day guys!

I'm sure i'll think of something else that i KNOW you are all just DYING to read! haha

rich at heart...

Sometime I wish I had a ton of money..

I'd like to be able to send those I love random acts of kindness to bring up their mood for the day.. if it's just for one day- that's one day they can feel the love I have for them...

I wanna send my friends a big bouquet of flowers, or a jar of cookies.. or something special that will make 'em smile...

maybe someday...

inventing...

I find myself in a daze of wanting to do things.. always.. something bigger- something brighter-- and something to occupy my over creative mind..

I use the word "over creative" loosely- bcuz I could think of a million things, but too lazy to follow thru with them..

I find myself on the etsy.com website thinking of all the cool things I could make or buy etc..

but the truth is, i'm too much like my damn mom- and won't follow thru with any brilliant idea I have..

so here i sit, frustrated and irritated w/ myself for being and "imagine-ator"

w/ no drive to make the next step..

what does it take for me to do something, anything- what will I have to do inorder to make the next step??

FUDGE!

LOOKING BACK

So as life goes on we always look back at prior decades and say.. "WHAT WERE WE THINKING?!"

i.e. MC hammer pants, scrunchy hair barrettes, mullets, neon colors, teased bangs etc..

and after watching HSN for an hour on these BRAND NEW Ed Hardy shoes that are just THE COOLEST THING OUT THERE!.. I couldn't help but have a, "flash FWD" into time and see us looking back at these hot pink glittery shoes that appear to have cartoons drawn on them, and just laugh at what we thought was THE COOLEST thing back in 2010ish..

haha

Mark my words.. Ed Hardy will be like scrunchy socks and neon spandex.. ( oh wait, 1/2 these items are already coming back!! NOOOOO!!! )

LOL

- not that i am bias, bcuz I truly hate Ed Hardy - but I aside from that, I can just see where this one is going.. haha

age and drinking...

I went out drinking the other night when we saw The Gaslight Anthem...

I made an ass outta myself once again and lived the next 24 hours in a deep stage of regret and embarrassment.. I'm not quite sure what's happened to me in the past few years..

when drinking and being a good memory used to be my daily gig, and now I argue, and act ridiculous when ever I'm drunk... ???

I told Danny I don't want to drink with him anymore for that reason... We don't have fun.

I act like an ass, he gets upset with me.. then my drunk ass tries to rationalize with him my actions.. and then the next day I spend it feeling terrible and apologizing nonstop..

And to top it all off, my husband has the biggest heart.. he forgives an forgets by the time morning comes around (which almost makes me feel worse)

.....

I say that I quite drinking when we got married and I was in NC and he was in Cali..

I went from 4 to 5 times a week of being a drunk slob, to maybe a friday evening in the Barracks with my best friend sitting in front of our door sharing a bottle of wine....

I really like the change and not being hung over every morning...

But, now if I do drink occasionally- it's just rediculous, and I'm a dumb ass....

I have to remind myself to cut myself off- bcuz that look of disappointment on Danny's face is pretty much the worse feeling ever....

I love you MuNkY

don't wait to long to come home.. i will leave the front light on...

I was feeling silly when I woke up, well not silly- more like groggy and in pain (damn bed!)

Then I got excited because I get to go to my first concert in YEARS tonight, and its The Gaslight Anthem.. an if you don't know who they are, you should really look them up.. I love love LOVE them...

Then I started lookin' thru photos and began to miss the Marine Corps....

and now i'm feeling nostalgic.. and I don't wanna be...

The summer is ending, and the looming grey skies are slowing lurking in for the season.. and I'm ready for 'em!

But the trick to surviving nasty weather in long periods of time... is not to intentionally bring yourself down.. and looking at pictures ALWAYS does it to me..

So - the moral of today- don't look at photos!

Danny and I are talking about moving..

Maybe I'll focus on that :o)

......

I dont know what it is....

But around the same time everyday i've gotten reallllly depressed..

and it's right about now..

I feel lost and lonely... by myself and almost a slight degree of miserable..

I'll never admit that I want to go back home- but i can't help but feel homesick.

Talking to my family doesn't help either... It's great that they are doing so well, and i get to hear about it...but there is a small, and i mean SMALL part of me that really wishes i could be with them, and near them, and grow up with them...

I know there is nothing for me in Kalamazoo, and if my family moved away, then I have nothing there.. what makes home, home?

If the people leave... then home is where my people move to.... there is nothing left for me there w.o them....

I guess it's part of growing up and moving on with your life..

Lord knows I don't want to be stuck somewhere in a cyclical pattern of day by day life...

I like the excitement of moving, traveling, meeting new people, growing close to new friends, enriching my life as it's an adventure every waking moment...

But with the life of a "nomad" comes it's draw backs...

You leave people behind?

Do we have to leave people behind to move forward? Are they two of the same, and with one you get the other?

As the great Lars says , "just because you're going fwd, doesnt mean i am going backwards".. and " just because you're better than me doesn't mean i'm lazy"

I guess it's just the way of life.. the phrase to have your cake and eat it too really makes sense the older i get...

*sigh* o well. I guess the only thing to do is put that smile on my face and keep ona truckin'...

I. Am. Retarded.

Lynnie and I had our MaryKay venue yesterday.. It was a lot of fun...

We created this great technique! Because I get retarded when I talk to people and she can sell the product, I was the one to sing and dance and get peoples attention (literally!) and when they walked up, she got them interested in the products!! It was a blast!

So- today I get to go thru all my leads and book free make overs / facials... but I CAN'T READ THEIR NAMES!!

garrr!!!

In other news, my husband is getting his scuba cert. this weekend and I will be going to Chelan by myself.... to float the river with the Colbert's woohoo!!

AND maybe Chris will teach my how to wake board!! woohoo!!!

okay- i am running outta things to say!

ta ta!

Comments? Comments?

Feel Free to leave a comment if you read my blog.. that way it will reassure me that there is this VAST AMOUNT OF PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO CARE!

BAH!hahahahaha

Lovin' Yourself 1st!

My father always taught me that in life and relationships with people, you must love yourself 1st before you can love someone else.

Being a Gilligan brings a lot of cockiness to the table as is...

It's not vanity. It's not arrogance. It's love.

I can sit at home all by myself and talk to nothing and make myself laugh at myself.

I truly love me for all my flaws.

I'm not that smart with books an stuff... I don't have much common sense, and it pretty easy for something to FLY over the top of my head... and leave me sitting there going , "Whaaaaaa?????"

But if you can embrace those little aspects about yourself, and laugh along with everyone else at yourself- It's so much more enjoyable.

*Sigh* Chris Colbert is driving to Seattle today an surprising Danny. He'll be staying with us for a few days.. i am really excited, I LOVE CHRIS! .. but the house is a mess..

and I have to clean it..

but instead, the damn social networking site of Facebook consumes my "social-butterfly-ness" and I have now spent 2 hours sitting here.. talking to myself..

I really need to find a hobby...

Workout pants, oh, workout pants, where art thou?

I was all excited to get tape measured to see my progress..

the key to not being let down is to not have any standards...

I was expecting to see massive results.. like when i was 18 an ran for a mile a day for a week and lost two pant sized an my abs reappeared ..

but now, at 24 (not that im over the hill, OR think I am old- i want to clarify so i dont have people bitchy at me and say, "Oooh heaven forbid, you are SOOO OLD.." like many people in my life yell whenever i make comments like this...- but you understand... i am OLDER THEN I WAS ...... YESTERDAY!!!.. GET IT??? so i am not insulting anyone why saying that I have a metabolism that is slowing down..

and on that note.. WHEN I SAY THAT I FEEL I NEED TO GET IN SHAPE... DO NOT ridicule me an reply "oh, well if i had your body! good grief! you look great!"

I'm not saying I am a FAT COW.. i am merely stating a fact that there are some areas in my body that i would like to tone up. IM NOT SAYING YOU ARE A FAT COW, bcuz you have the same issues..

GOODNESS, WITH THE SENSITIVITY!

anywho...

At the ripe old age of 24, i can tell a difference from 18 to now..

I run 3 miles a day (ish- depending on the week) thru out the week i watch what i eat.. and sometimes after the run i hit the gym..

and after a constint 3 weeks of this (longest period in my life)... THERE'S NOT MUCH HAPPENING IN THE " Vee vill have tu lose a 1/2 eench in heeps area"....

so- MORAL of the story- dont ever have standards, for that way, you will never be let down!

hahaha

love you all

-glo

reflection

I hate being alone all day sometimes.

I spend a lot of my time on fb.. thus making me look thru the old photos.. I miss those days so much.. when am i going to feel fulfilled again?

I had so many friends back in the day, and I feel like I have none anymore..

this somber feeling of depression is pissing me off..

when is my life going to take back off again?

I said goodbye to everyone to start another adventure in my life, and here i am... wishing i was stagnant, back in NC with my family there... *sigh*...

i have got to kick this feeling...

"coolness"

I find it amusing the older we get, the more we reflect on out "good old days" and think to ourselves how.. bad ass we used to be...

Bathroom duties

ONLY MY OPINION!

But I feel that men should be in charge of cleaning the shitter...

For the mere fact that they are more apt to make it and the surrounding areas .... messy.....

You see- woman don't have to worry about aiming... for we are pretty stationary.. but men.... men can have problems... I am mainly talking about when guys drink... they can have problems... and I am cleaning my bathroom right now, thinking of all the guys that have been over to our place drinking..

hahaha.... it's too much for me to think about!

But point of the story.. MEN should clean the shitter.. lol !

The Misfits

tonight i decided to drink more then normal...

then i started to listen to my ipod and i put on Rancid and The Misfits..

and I just want to say....

I fucking love The Misfits...

Danzig, you sing to my soul...

Michale Graves, I love you equally because you are who I 1st heard when introduced to the Misfits...

The Woooooo ooo oooo's make me so happy...

you are the heart beat i feel when i feel lonely...

I love you Punk Rock.... you truly are the begining of my heart and soul...

I will always be true when i listen to you..

thank you Punk Rock for being so wonderful to me...

*sigh* oh how i miss those days in 7th grade when my brother drove me to school everyday and introduced me to the origin of my life...

*yawn* education in the US

Waking up for the mere fact of because it's day time doesn't seem like a good enough reason for me to roll out of bed sometimes...

We ran Greenlake yesterday... and I smoke checked my regular run time, I'm pretty sure it was because my husband was with me this time... and i was TOTALLY trying to show off!

We're going to run it again today, and then head to the gym an get our measurements! I am actually really excited about this...

and then we are grilling out at a friends house...

wow- life really isnt that exciting right now...

yesterday on the way to my english class i was reflecting on the previous day's topic of poor education in the united states... and i realized that i don't really think we have a problem with education.. i guess not in kalamazoo michigan..

when i came in and sat down i wanted to share my opinion w/ Pearl ( the instructor) and I told her ... You see, education isnt the problem.. its the irresponsibleness of the parents.. My mother didn't have a good structure or discipline for us and tell us to sit down an work with us thru it... thus- i got bad grads... my father did a little better of a job, thus- i got better grades...

so, in retro spec ( only my OPINION) it's the parents lack of authority in this country that causes children to grow up to be dumb asses...

i am not doing something with my life because AS i got older.. my father taught me about options and choices and those things became important to me.. to later lead me into making choices for my life like, the marine corps - to later give me free college and many MANY more doors that are opened that wouldn't have been if i would have continued to be a dumb ass....

ya fallow??? an then i laughed and said... "so really, it's our parents fault.. everything is there fault! hahaha"

just kidding , of course... BUT i think it plays a big part....

A new place to blabber

I am currently on a good work out / healthy eating routine...

I was starving about 10 min ago an opened my freezer to find one of those AMAZING tasting Healthy Choice frozen meals. I don't know what in the hell compelled me to buy a Lobster Ravioli dinner... I don't even like seafood that much.. but I got in anyway (probably because it was one of those "buy 2 for $5 deals" ) .... and I decided out of all the things in our apartment that I could possible eat that Lobster Ravioli was the ONLY thing to satisfy my needs.

It looked good, smelled good.... did not taste good..

So now, I am stuffed with a very unsatisfying feeling...

A hot fudge sundae would be amazing, but I am saying "not to junk" until our wedding ceremony.. because when i BOUGHT my wedding dress 2 mths ago, it fit just fine.. I went in to get the chest taken in a little and the gal looked at me with her Russian accent and said, "Ve vill need tu take zee heeps out a 1/2 eench "

So- here I am, 3 weeks before my next fitting trying to get my "heeps" down a "1/2 eench"

Eating terrible, frozen, calorie controlled meals... depriving myself of the glass of Merlot I used to enjoy at the end of my days... focusing on snacks like plain almonds and raisins instead of cookies and brownies that I have been craving for weeks!!

Oh- the wonders of having the metabolism of a .... what's an animal that just gets fat???... bear.. yes! a bear, that fattens up before the winter.. altho, every season is the winter for me.. just storing the yummy food that graces my pallet..

Where my husband, w/ the metabolism of an Antelope , gets to chow down on Big Mac's an fries :) ... mmmmm Big Mac.... aagggggghhh *drools*