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Lovin' Yourself 1st!

My father always taught me that in life and relationships with people, you must love yourself 1st before you can love someone else.

Being a Gilligan brings a lot of cockiness to the table as is...

It's not vanity. It's not arrogance. It's love.

I can sit at home all by myself and talk to nothing and make myself laugh at myself.

I truly love me for all my flaws.

I'm not that smart with books an stuff... I don't have much common sense, and it pretty easy for something to FLY over the top of my head... and leave me sitting there going , "Whaaaaaa?????"

But if you can embrace those little aspects about yourself, and laugh along with everyone else at yourself- It's so much more enjoyable.

*Sigh* Chris Colbert is driving to Seattle today an surprising Danny. He'll be staying with us for a few days.. i am really excited, I LOVE CHRIS! .. but the house is a mess..

and I have to clean it..

but instead, the damn social networking site of Facebook consumes my "social-butterfly-ness" and I have now spent 2 hours sitting here.. talking to myself..

I really need to find a hobby...

Workout pants, oh, workout pants, where art thou?

I was all excited to get tape measured to see my progress..

the key to not being let down is to not have any standards...

I was expecting to see massive results.. like when i was 18 an ran for a mile a day for a week and lost two pant sized an my abs reappeared ..

but now, at 24 (not that im over the hill, OR think I am old- i want to clarify so i dont have people bitchy at me and say, "Oooh heaven forbid, you are SOOO OLD.." like many people in my life yell whenever i make comments like this...- but you understand... i am OLDER THEN I WAS ...... YESTERDAY!!!.. GET IT??? so i am not insulting anyone why saying that I have a metabolism that is slowing down..

and on that note.. WHEN I SAY THAT I FEEL I NEED TO GET IN SHAPE... DO NOT ridicule me an reply "oh, well if i had your body! good grief! you look great!"

I'm not saying I am a FAT COW.. i am merely stating a fact that there are some areas in my body that i would like to tone up. IM NOT SAYING YOU ARE A FAT COW, bcuz you have the same issues..

GOODNESS, WITH THE SENSITIVITY!

anywho...

At the ripe old age of 24, i can tell a difference from 18 to now..

I run 3 miles a day (ish- depending on the week) thru out the week i watch what i eat.. and sometimes after the run i hit the gym..

and after a constint 3 weeks of this (longest period in my life)... THERE'S NOT MUCH HAPPENING IN THE " Vee vill have tu lose a 1/2 eench in heeps area"....

so- MORAL of the story- dont ever have standards, for that way, you will never be let down!

hahaha

love you all

-glo

reflection

I hate being alone all day sometimes.

I spend a lot of my time on fb.. thus making me look thru the old photos.. I miss those days so much.. when am i going to feel fulfilled again?

I had so many friends back in the day, and I feel like I have none anymore..

this somber feeling of depression is pissing me off..

when is my life going to take back off again?

I said goodbye to everyone to start another adventure in my life, and here i am... wishing i was stagnant, back in NC with my family there... *sigh*...

i have got to kick this feeling...

"coolness"

I find it amusing the older we get, the more we reflect on out "good old days" and think to ourselves how.. bad ass we used to be...

Bathroom duties

ONLY MY OPINION!

But I feel that men should be in charge of cleaning the shitter...

For the mere fact that they are more apt to make it and the surrounding areas .... messy.....

You see- woman don't have to worry about aiming... for we are pretty stationary.. but men.... men can have problems... I am mainly talking about when guys drink... they can have problems... and I am cleaning my bathroom right now, thinking of all the guys that have been over to our place drinking..

hahaha.... it's too much for me to think about!

But point of the story.. MEN should clean the shitter.. lol !

The Misfits

tonight i decided to drink more then normal...

then i started to listen to my ipod and i put on Rancid and The Misfits..

and I just want to say....

I fucking love The Misfits...

Danzig, you sing to my soul...

Michale Graves, I love you equally because you are who I 1st heard when introduced to the Misfits...

The Woooooo ooo oooo's make me so happy...

you are the heart beat i feel when i feel lonely...

I love you Punk Rock.... you truly are the begining of my heart and soul...

I will always be true when i listen to you..

thank you Punk Rock for being so wonderful to me...

*sigh* oh how i miss those days in 7th grade when my brother drove me to school everyday and introduced me to the origin of my life...

*yawn* education in the US

Waking up for the mere fact of because it's day time doesn't seem like a good enough reason for me to roll out of bed sometimes...

We ran Greenlake yesterday... and I smoke checked my regular run time, I'm pretty sure it was because my husband was with me this time... and i was TOTALLY trying to show off!

We're going to run it again today, and then head to the gym an get our measurements! I am actually really excited about this...

and then we are grilling out at a friends house...

wow- life really isnt that exciting right now...

yesterday on the way to my english class i was reflecting on the previous day's topic of poor education in the united states... and i realized that i don't really think we have a problem with education.. i guess not in kalamazoo michigan..

when i came in and sat down i wanted to share my opinion w/ Pearl ( the instructor) and I told her ... You see, education isnt the problem.. its the irresponsibleness of the parents.. My mother didn't have a good structure or discipline for us and tell us to sit down an work with us thru it... thus- i got bad grads... my father did a little better of a job, thus- i got better grades...

so, in retro spec ( only my OPINION) it's the parents lack of authority in this country that causes children to grow up to be dumb asses...

i am not doing something with my life because AS i got older.. my father taught me about options and choices and those things became important to me.. to later lead me into making choices for my life like, the marine corps - to later give me free college and many MANY more doors that are opened that wouldn't have been if i would have continued to be a dumb ass....

ya fallow??? an then i laughed and said... "so really, it's our parents fault.. everything is there fault! hahaha"

just kidding , of course... BUT i think it plays a big part....

A new place to blabber

I am currently on a good work out / healthy eating routine...

I was starving about 10 min ago an opened my freezer to find one of those AMAZING tasting Healthy Choice frozen meals. I don't know what in the hell compelled me to buy a Lobster Ravioli dinner... I don't even like seafood that much.. but I got in anyway (probably because it was one of those "buy 2 for $5 deals" ) .... and I decided out of all the things in our apartment that I could possible eat that Lobster Ravioli was the ONLY thing to satisfy my needs.

It looked good, smelled good.... did not taste good..

So now, I am stuffed with a very unsatisfying feeling...

A hot fudge sundae would be amazing, but I am saying "not to junk" until our wedding ceremony.. because when i BOUGHT my wedding dress 2 mths ago, it fit just fine.. I went in to get the chest taken in a little and the gal looked at me with her Russian accent and said, "Ve vill need tu take zee heeps out a 1/2 eench "

So- here I am, 3 weeks before my next fitting trying to get my "heeps" down a "1/2 eench"

Eating terrible, frozen, calorie controlled meals... depriving myself of the glass of Merlot I used to enjoy at the end of my days... focusing on snacks like plain almonds and raisins instead of cookies and brownies that I have been craving for weeks!!

Oh- the wonders of having the metabolism of a .... what's an animal that just gets fat???... bear.. yes! a bear, that fattens up before the winter.. altho, every season is the winter for me.. just storing the yummy food that graces my pallet..

Where my husband, w/ the metabolism of an Antelope , gets to chow down on Big Mac's an fries :) ... mmmmm Big Mac.... aagggggghhh *drools*