Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Far Behind by Candlebox
Sunday, November 20, 2011
You think your gangsta.. cuz you did time.. well listen up gangsta...
Sunday, November 13, 2011
how much does a pound of anxiety weigh?
I went to most likely my last Marine Corps Ball last night... and drank like a 21 y/o LCpl again.. lol
during the ceremony, my eyes may have gotten a little misty... the pride and tradition will forever mean the world to me..
you can look around to the dates of most the Marines and watch them sway, look around, mess with their hair, and not pay attention.. but you look at every squared away Marine in their dress blues... standing at complete attention, not moving a muscle.. respect and honor for what we stand for... it was pretty nice to be there again..
an for the rest of the night.. double jack an coke's took away most my memory ... but what I do remember is that Lynnie started the dance floor :) and it was amazing...
but what I did realize is that I am happy to be out. and that this chapter ... this part of my life... this prideful part of my life... its okay to be over with... its okay.. and I'm okay with it being done.
I'm gunna do big things in life... and thats how they get accomplished... you have to close chapters in order to start new ones...
I went home to Michigan for the 1st time in 2 years a few weeks ago.. and I had a blast... so so many people that mean so much to me..asked all the time when i was moving back to kalamazoo..
unfortunately, thats just not in the stars for me...
you cant do big things when u are in a stagnant lull and i feel like kalamazoo has me in a lull... a lot of memories that I am happy to have forgotten...
why cant we have our cake an eat it too? like-- a BIG ICE CREAM cake... mmMMmMmmm nom nom nom.... ice cream cake.....
my college qtr is almost done... i can't wait.. cuz this 0700 to 2200 everyday sched is kicking my ass...
snowboarding season is gunna start soon.... sooo excited....
speaking of school.. i have a paper to write.. because it's sunday night an i've had all week to do it-- an this is how i roll...
procrastination. .....
I super love my cat.
an random thoughts...
I love Pad Thai too...
mmmmmmm kung pow chicken..
this morning i thin i was still drunk when i got to work.. and i looked over to Penelope while I was cutting my clients hair and asked.. "does this look okay?"
haha
dont worry- it was a little boy... and he had a mess of hair.. i just wasnt sure what was going on ....
but P reassured me that I was doing good.. thats what true friends are for.. hahahahaha
and then i came home.. an i curled up in the arms of my husband and took the GREATEST NAP EVER!.. an ate some Pad Thai...
I love lamp.
peace. Im out. gnite ya'll...
during the ceremony, my eyes may have gotten a little misty... the pride and tradition will forever mean the world to me..
you can look around to the dates of most the Marines and watch them sway, look around, mess with their hair, and not pay attention.. but you look at every squared away Marine in their dress blues... standing at complete attention, not moving a muscle.. respect and honor for what we stand for... it was pretty nice to be there again..
an for the rest of the night.. double jack an coke's took away most my memory ... but what I do remember is that Lynnie started the dance floor :) and it was amazing...
but what I did realize is that I am happy to be out. and that this chapter ... this part of my life... this prideful part of my life... its okay to be over with... its okay.. and I'm okay with it being done.
I'm gunna do big things in life... and thats how they get accomplished... you have to close chapters in order to start new ones...
I went home to Michigan for the 1st time in 2 years a few weeks ago.. and I had a blast... so so many people that mean so much to me..asked all the time when i was moving back to kalamazoo..
unfortunately, thats just not in the stars for me...
you cant do big things when u are in a stagnant lull and i feel like kalamazoo has me in a lull... a lot of memories that I am happy to have forgotten...
why cant we have our cake an eat it too? like-- a BIG ICE CREAM cake... mmMMmMmmm nom nom nom.... ice cream cake.....
my college qtr is almost done... i can't wait.. cuz this 0700 to 2200 everyday sched is kicking my ass...
snowboarding season is gunna start soon.... sooo excited....
speaking of school.. i have a paper to write.. because it's sunday night an i've had all week to do it-- an this is how i roll...
procrastination. .....
I super love my cat.
an random thoughts...
I love Pad Thai too...
mmmmmmm kung pow chicken..
this morning i thin i was still drunk when i got to work.. and i looked over to Penelope while I was cutting my clients hair and asked.. "does this look okay?"
haha
dont worry- it was a little boy... and he had a mess of hair.. i just wasnt sure what was going on ....
but P reassured me that I was doing good.. thats what true friends are for.. hahahahaha
and then i came home.. an i curled up in the arms of my husband and took the GREATEST NAP EVER!.. an ate some Pad Thai...
I love lamp.
peace. Im out. gnite ya'll...
Friday, August 26, 2011
dedication.
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my blogs are my thoughts- they are as real as the thoughts to myself. self-centered, arrogant, conceited, vain, love, lust, joy etc... all parts of my mind ... an most likely all of our minds.... but who has the balls to really admit their own vanity?
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I don't normally dedicate a blog to someone, because mostly they are just rants that I am thinking about at the moment.
But as all of you know- My level of motivation towards my beloved Corps is only rising. :o)
I had a discussion with my husband a bit ago, describing the ultimatum I have given myself. In 3 years time, if I don't feel that my income, benefits, an vacation isn't up to par- I know I always have a back up plan, an wish to reenlist at the Sgt that MOL has me as.
I'd like to thank a marine in my life that hated me, despised the idea of a single deployment with me, let alone have me work for him.
My unit sends out tons of marines at a time for a giving deployment, but for this special case it was just me an the SSgt.. (an the LT who didn't like me either) According to my SSgt, he told me once that when he found out he was going on det with only me, he dreaded all the trouble i was going to get him into... because he knew only of my drunk stories, an rumors that would spread ... an some I can assume were not just rumors...
I dreaded the next 7 mths of my life.. knowing that this SOB was in charge of me.. he was an annoying, hard ass that had everything to complain about, and tell me what i was doing wrong. Micro-managing and shadowing me is NOT the way to get thru to me... I was, after all, "Cpl F**King Gilligan" ... Lots of friends, drunk every night, proud of my 200$ bar tabs ...and i thought I was amazing. Breaking hearts an booze made me feel powerful.
and then, along came the reality check....
not having anyone else in supply but my SSgt an I, the pressure was on...
I had picked up Cpl that spring, but moved shops an was still learning, so I never was put into a position of an NCO... so, according to me, in my little world, I was the center of it... I mine as well be a PFC at the rate I was going... but I was proud to be an NCO because I had a high PFT, high rifle, an good pros/cons, an went to Cpl's course 5 mths before I even picked up... so I thought as far as I am concerned I was hot shit... ya know, look at the paper work... it says it all.. but the truth was-- I had NO IDEA how to do ANYTHING... I never understood supply, I never had any marines to be responsible for, or set the example... pretty much all i knew how to do was issue boots, and i messed that up 1/2 the time anyway.
Headed to japan for the 2nd time with VMA-223 Harriers, I knew my way around...
So--- my SSgt puts me on night crew (probably so he didn't have to work with me or see me... )
Pushing me out of his hair back fired... the 1st night we had to work in Japan, SSgt had me workd day crew, then the next week I was switching to night crew, to manage myself ... this was a good idea??? (ya right)
The night before work, I went out drinking with my "friends" and was up till 0430, an had to be to work by 0530...
long story short, SSgt was pounding down my door at 0846 only to be greeted by his ONLY RESPONSIBILITY, still waisted, cigarette smelling, still dressed from the night before, makeup smeared down face, stumbling to the door in a delirious gaze like i didnt know where i was.
I had 10 min to be changed over, an in front of my barrack for the longest 5 min, silent drive, of my LIFE... all they way to the flight line.
an there awaits my LT that can't stand me and my SSgt that is already ashamed of the disgrace i was turning out to be.
our little office cleared, an i stood at parade rest getting the biggest, most embarrassing ass-chewing I'd ever gotten. Getting yelled at is one thing.. you messed up your job... *YELL YELL YELL, SPIT IN MY FACE, KNIFE HAND ME, IM A EFF UP, TURD BLAH BLAH BLAH* ... but when they are genuinely disappointed in you... because it wasn't even my 1st day of work an I had already fulfilled all of his dreaded nightmares an assumptions of me.... different story.
"YOU WANNA ACT LIKE A PFC, I CAN MAKE YOU ONE! YOU WANNA EMBARRASS ME, THAT'S FINE-- I'LL EMBARRASS THE HELL OUT OF YOU! I KNEW YOU WERE TROUBLE! I KNEW YOU WERE GOING TO F**K UP THIS DEPLOYMENT FOR ME! etc.....You shouldn't even be a Cpl, you are a disgrace to a NCO....."
so-- low point in my career.. because, remember... I had tons of friends, and i could drink with my boys, and i liked to party.. because isnt that was the corps is about??? I remember my DI telling us, "Just remember, we work hard-- but we play even harder" and i thought to myself, "SWEET! IT'S GOING TO BE A PARTY FOR THE NEXT 4 YEARS!!!"
SSgt put me on day crew and I have ZERO room to mess up anything...micro-manage, and always breathing down my neck-- I hated him even more...
and then it all changed.. We were delivering C-130 tires to the ship yard on the other side of base, and in the EZ-Go.. we talked about life... and I told him where I came from, and the things I had done, and what I really loved about the Marine Corps, and what I wanted to be... an I wanted to be a good NCO, I want marines to look up to me.. i just dont know who... because I never had a Staff NCO to allow me to be that way... I was stuck in this FLIPPING, stupid shop that had the highest turn over rate of OIC's n Staff NCO's ... I was always by myself.. and always messing up things...my ASO told me I was doing great all the time an not to change.. then my Gunny would pull me aside an tell me I was a f**k up...
from that point out.. SSgt an I bonded.. he understood me.. he knew why i was the way i was...
He gave me responsibility.. put my incharge of things.. i got to be an NCO, he believed in me, taught me about supply.. an how it worked, and what I had to do, an know... gave me a reason to try an improve... kinda shined a different light on the ridiculous life I was living..
Granted, a lot of the marines I worked with back garrison couldn't stand him.. an didn;t understand why I loved him so much... but they also didn't know what he meant to me... I really embarrassed him, and made a mockery out of myself... and he pulled me back up.. I think because of him-- is why I loved the corps so much in the end...
Now, I know at going-aways every one tells you nice things, weather its a bunch of BS or not... no one is gunna stand up an say, "You were a jack ass" but I had a good turn out.. My Mastergunns was there, even my ASO! lots of my friends... and the best compliment I ever received from anyone was Master Gunnery Seargent Cook... "Cpl Gilligan, a great marine, w/o a single military bone in her body... no bearing and an no discipline, but a fine marine that will be greatly missed...."
Take it how you will- but that made me feel like I did a great job...
Knezeck would always feel that I was her go to marine for help... maybe that was mostly because after Cpl Driskill went on preggo leave, no one else was left to seek guidance from :o)...
But i want to thank you, SSgt Carlos Moreira..... inspite of what they all say about you (hahaha) I really loved you.. you taught me a lot, and didn't give up on me, and I hope I made you proud in the end....
I hope I made everyone proud in the end.... I loved the corps then, and I love it now... I didnt wanna be just another "wm" an i hope I illustrated that in the end..
Thursday, August 25, 2011
... silence is the loudest parting word, you never say...
not feeling up beat an chipper....
not feeling in love with my life...
the sun is shining down on this beautiful earth, and i am ..... here..... stuck in the corner of my brain.... shuffling thoughts of an argument that hasn't happened. and argument that is played out in my mind 1000 ways... but the only outcome is pain.
how many times do you have to repeat yourself until you feel like you have spoken?
my thoughts become issues, issues become anger which turns into rage... next thing i know.. i am making my bed in the most aggressive manner possible, and just screaming at the top of my hypothetical lungs in my hypothetical fight in my own mind.
there are so many things to say, but no words will come out right...
the waiting game is becoming my next obstacle to conquer... patience and time is the only remedy for this problem...
but when the day has come I know that it will be better. That that smile will be on your face, and it will light up my life... and I will love again... love my life, love these days...
ya know how they say "the grass is always greener" i think thats a bullshit statement.. because I know that it's not...
I don't understand where that perspective comes from.. because even when I am upset and sad and angry and frustrated... I know that at these moments of darkness...... these moments are better with you then a great moment with anyone else....
I'd rather live in silence and pain for a bit then to be happy with anyone else....
which brings me to my next point....
its not that bad... maybe I am okay today... maybe all it took was a few sentences... and now I can smile with you... because I do know that this time will go by.. and everything will be perfect.. because since you've come into my life... my life has been complete...
I am sorry I don't do a good job supporting you... and that I say the wrong things at the wrong time... and I clam up when you need me the most sometimes... I am still new at this "wife" thing.... and we have a lot of years together to perfect it... just don't give up on me, and I wont give up on you :o) even when i eat the rest of dinner and didnt leave you any :(
I remember this man I met once... on the back of an aircraft carrier.. we sat above the wake and watched the sun set below the horizon of the Sea of Japan... and he looked at me and said, "Bonnie an Clyde... till the end"... an described this life we'd have together...that we'd be on a roller coaster, and no one could ever stop us... and that he'd love me forever and always....
I remember those butterflies... they are still here..... I love you.... you are my everything....
this was us :o)
---- i feel much better... thnx for listening :o)
Saturday, August 13, 2011
Yut! Rah! and all that trash...
The prettiest girl I ever saw,
was sipping bourbon through a straw...
I picked her up..
I laid her down...
her long black hair, laid all around...
And Now I have, a mother-in-law
and 14 kids, who call me Pa...
The moral of, the story is clear
Instead of bourbon, stick to beer!
I love my running cadence... Oorah Marine Corps... Once a marine, always a Marine... rah rah yut yut... motivated, dedicated, to the corps, my corps... an all that other trash..
I've started working at Rudy's... and its AMAZING! I love it everyday- and I don't plan to ever leave... It is the perfect type of job that I have been dreaming for.. by far the best just I have ever had....of course, SECOND in line to my beloved Marine Corps...
Rudy's is the type of place that you come in, you work, listen to great music, have steady walk in clients all day, no bosses are over your shoulder--- no one is there to micro manage you.. (sorry USMC, you are guilty of THAT one!)... you just come in-- do your work, have a BLAST doing it... and head out at the end of the day....
I met this girl.. her name is Kaeti... and she's pretty awesome... I asked her to come to Chelan with me this week, so we took off on thursday after work and headed to mom n dads .. pulled in at 2am... an spend all day friday-- floating around on the floatys in the lake...
when i didnt talk non stop i got a chance to hear about her and her life... where she came from , why she is the way she is...
I'm the type of person that when i meet someone.. that i like, care about, relate to, admire... i meet people -- an take / bring on parts of them and copy it...
there are parts of Kaeti that I learned about and just felt in such awe... she is a young girl, but has intelligence beyond her years... strong, knows her self, confident, and been thru a lot... VERY awesome time spent with her and SO happy she took a few days and went home with me... I feel very happy to have met her, and hope we can have a good friendship!
It's good to surround yourself by positive people... by people that make you wanna grow better as a person... the 1st person in my life is my husband.. he means everything to me, and makes me want to be a better person... but people like Lynnie, and now Kaeti & Penelope... they have such a good foundation of their own personal moral.. it really helps to have those people in your life... almost like a constant reminder to become "you-centric" not, "me-centric".
it was a wonderful time.. o BTW the reason for the moto in the begining is because, Kaeti found out I was a USMarine and started asking me questions (last week some time) an then the next day comes to me an says " I am going to join the Navy !" :o) so happy for her an her choice to open up some options in her life via the military... I don't mind that she doesnt wanna join the corps... even tho i think we are the elite and any other branch secretly wishes they would have gone balls to the wall and done the hardest to be the proudest.. but if you were to join any other branch, i fully support the Navy.. and I am so happy for her choice...
Don;t have much other things going on.. still battling with some inner demons, but its okay... i've got a good grasp on them, now its just a matter of making the changes...
going to church in the morning- and VERY excited about it.. its been 2 weeks :O(
PS- danny is in San Diego.. for a week.... I am drinking a glass of wine an a bag of Kisses... an watching TV curled up in my bed.... so lost w/o my soul mate..
Im content.... right now....
gnite....
was sipping bourbon through a straw...
I picked her up..
I laid her down...
her long black hair, laid all around...
And Now I have, a mother-in-law
and 14 kids, who call me Pa...
The moral of, the story is clear
Instead of bourbon, stick to beer!
I love my running cadence... Oorah Marine Corps... Once a marine, always a Marine... rah rah yut yut... motivated, dedicated, to the corps, my corps... an all that other trash..
I've started working at Rudy's... and its AMAZING! I love it everyday- and I don't plan to ever leave... It is the perfect type of job that I have been dreaming for.. by far the best just I have ever had....of course, SECOND in line to my beloved Marine Corps...
Rudy's is the type of place that you come in, you work, listen to great music, have steady walk in clients all day, no bosses are over your shoulder--- no one is there to micro manage you.. (sorry USMC, you are guilty of THAT one!)... you just come in-- do your work, have a BLAST doing it... and head out at the end of the day....
I met this girl.. her name is Kaeti... and she's pretty awesome... I asked her to come to Chelan with me this week, so we took off on thursday after work and headed to mom n dads .. pulled in at 2am... an spend all day friday-- floating around on the floatys in the lake...
when i didnt talk non stop i got a chance to hear about her and her life... where she came from , why she is the way she is...
I'm the type of person that when i meet someone.. that i like, care about, relate to, admire... i meet people -- an take / bring on parts of them and copy it...
there are parts of Kaeti that I learned about and just felt in such awe... she is a young girl, but has intelligence beyond her years... strong, knows her self, confident, and been thru a lot... VERY awesome time spent with her and SO happy she took a few days and went home with me... I feel very happy to have met her, and hope we can have a good friendship!
It's good to surround yourself by positive people... by people that make you wanna grow better as a person... the 1st person in my life is my husband.. he means everything to me, and makes me want to be a better person... but people like Lynnie, and now Kaeti & Penelope... they have such a good foundation of their own personal moral.. it really helps to have those people in your life... almost like a constant reminder to become "you-centric" not, "me-centric".
it was a wonderful time.. o BTW the reason for the moto in the begining is because, Kaeti found out I was a USMarine and started asking me questions (last week some time) an then the next day comes to me an says " I am going to join the Navy !" :o) so happy for her an her choice to open up some options in her life via the military... I don't mind that she doesnt wanna join the corps... even tho i think we are the elite and any other branch secretly wishes they would have gone balls to the wall and done the hardest to be the proudest.. but if you were to join any other branch, i fully support the Navy.. and I am so happy for her choice...
Don;t have much other things going on.. still battling with some inner demons, but its okay... i've got a good grasp on them, now its just a matter of making the changes...
going to church in the morning- and VERY excited about it.. its been 2 weeks :O(
PS- danny is in San Diego.. for a week.... I am drinking a glass of wine an a bag of Kisses... an watching TV curled up in my bed.... so lost w/o my soul mate..
Im content.... right now....
gnite....
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
love.
after a long 4 days of getting back into working long hours... my shoulders ache, back hurts, feet are sore.
all i wanted tonight was to take a nice bubble bath....
when i walked in the bathroom to get ready to relax.... the bath was already drawn, candles lit all around and sweet aromas fill the air....
I love my husband.. he is an amazing man.
I am the luckiest woman in the world to have such an amazing man.
all i wanted tonight was to take a nice bubble bath....
when i walked in the bathroom to get ready to relax.... the bath was already drawn, candles lit all around and sweet aromas fill the air....
I love my husband.. he is an amazing man.
I am the luckiest woman in the world to have such an amazing man.
Monday, July 25, 2011
i used to be AmAzInG...
ever have those moments in your life when it's just you an your music....
and you play an album from back in the day..
for me.. Because I was talking to James Allen last night, so when i was thinking of a song to listen.. For me it's The Misfits -- if you know me, thats a no brainer--- for I haven't listened to Famous Monsters album in forever..
INSTANTLY.. my blood boils..! i close my eyes an im sitting in my old house on Wood St.... blaring dads stereo while he is at work-- learning all the words so i can sing along with my brother...
im 15 all over again... on top of the world.. before i got sucked into a mentally destructive relationship... i knew me.. i knew who i was... an i knew i LOVED this music...
but really-- i didnt have a clue who i was....
isnt it THAT that makes us... AWESOME!
i didnt know who i was till i was on my own.. traveling the world... wish i spent a little more time single in my life ( i have never been single before).. but then agian, that is me.. thats part of me..an its okay.. i love to love.. and i will love anyone... an i think thats okay.. who said i can only love one person.. who said i cant face plant the day i meet someone ...
i face planted over my husband... even tho i couldnt have him... it wasnt till months later i connected the dots an relized he was the single most amazing, loving, big hearted, perfect for me... man i'd ever meet..
anyway.. back to being amazing...
i feel amazing..
and DANGIT!! it's because i LOVE THE MISFITS....
AND THATS OKAY TOO!
this blog has no meaning...
but feeling amazing..
BECAUSE THE MISFITS ROCK!!!
and you play an album from back in the day..
for me.. Because I was talking to James Allen last night, so when i was thinking of a song to listen.. For me it's The Misfits -- if you know me, thats a no brainer--- for I haven't listened to Famous Monsters album in forever..
INSTANTLY.. my blood boils..! i close my eyes an im sitting in my old house on Wood St.... blaring dads stereo while he is at work-- learning all the words so i can sing along with my brother...
im 15 all over again... on top of the world.. before i got sucked into a mentally destructive relationship... i knew me.. i knew who i was... an i knew i LOVED this music...
but really-- i didnt have a clue who i was....
isnt it THAT that makes us... AWESOME!
i didnt know who i was till i was on my own.. traveling the world... wish i spent a little more time single in my life ( i have never been single before).. but then agian, that is me.. thats part of me..an its okay.. i love to love.. and i will love anyone... an i think thats okay.. who said i can only love one person.. who said i cant face plant the day i meet someone ...
i face planted over my husband... even tho i couldnt have him... it wasnt till months later i connected the dots an relized he was the single most amazing, loving, big hearted, perfect for me... man i'd ever meet..
anyway.. back to being amazing...
i feel amazing..
and DANGIT!! it's because i LOVE THE MISFITS....
AND THATS OKAY TOO!
this blog has no meaning...
but feeling amazing..
BECAUSE THE MISFITS ROCK!!!
Friday, July 22, 2011
the sun is shining.. an i am a smiling
today is one of those days that you catch yourself driving down the highway with sun in you face, smiling.
i feel good.. i am on top of the world. i'm going places, and doing big things in my life..
i've got the bull by the horns, and i am in control of this roller coaster...
an no one can stop me!
i feel good.. i am on top of the world. i'm going places, and doing big things in my life..
i've got the bull by the horns, and i am in control of this roller coaster...
an no one can stop me!
Sunday, July 17, 2011
drowning.
this morning... after serving at the cafe with my ladies in church.... i had a great moment durning worship.
while singing in church... i raise my hands to the lord and start to weep. tears streamed down my face as I pray to the Lord, and ask for forgiveness... for just a brief moment my thoughts are clear and i can communicate with him my feelings... I wish to be like you. I wish to be better.
in the midst of self evaluation an an sobs--- there managed to be a clear moment where i felt the worlds i sang, and spoke clearly in my mind.....
its very hard for me to pray.
i cant even close my eyes and listen to Pastor Don pray with out losing focus. a million thoughts flutter my brain... so clouded an masked ... I yell in my mind "FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS" ... just to drown out the distractions....
i feel like i am drowning. drowning in me. self indulged... me me me..... even this blog. isn't this just a place for me to talk about me? and im vain enough to believe that you all are really interested in me? isnt that vanity? but arent we all vain? dont we all seek self worth in others approval?
I'm not depressed... I'm just feeling lost. my mind doesnt shut off long enough to finish a thought. always thinking of a million things all at once... and i just need peace. I need peace in my heart... and my soul.. i need peace with the Lord...
I need to shut up so i can listen. I know he's speaking to me... I know he helps me... he's always around me... I'm just so wrapped up in my life that I feel that I am clouding him out....
Lynnie is amazing-- an when i shut up an listen to her... she really knows ...it helps to talk to her... I dont really know who to talk to sometimes... maybe that's why i like my blog... because I am talking to anyone that is interested in listening... and if no one is out there... then i still get it off my chest...
I'm drowning, but I can see a floaty near by..maybe its one of those noodles... those things are so handy... I just gotta clear the daubery between me an the survival... my an the Lord...
It's just you an me, God... bring it on :o) I need all your loving...
while singing in church... i raise my hands to the lord and start to weep. tears streamed down my face as I pray to the Lord, and ask for forgiveness... for just a brief moment my thoughts are clear and i can communicate with him my feelings... I wish to be like you. I wish to be better.
in the midst of self evaluation an an sobs--- there managed to be a clear moment where i felt the worlds i sang, and spoke clearly in my mind.....
its very hard for me to pray.
i cant even close my eyes and listen to Pastor Don pray with out losing focus. a million thoughts flutter my brain... so clouded an masked ... I yell in my mind "FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS" ... just to drown out the distractions....
i feel like i am drowning. drowning in me. self indulged... me me me..... even this blog. isn't this just a place for me to talk about me? and im vain enough to believe that you all are really interested in me? isnt that vanity? but arent we all vain? dont we all seek self worth in others approval?
I'm not depressed... I'm just feeling lost. my mind doesnt shut off long enough to finish a thought. always thinking of a million things all at once... and i just need peace. I need peace in my heart... and my soul.. i need peace with the Lord...
I need to shut up so i can listen. I know he's speaking to me... I know he helps me... he's always around me... I'm just so wrapped up in my life that I feel that I am clouding him out....
Lynnie is amazing-- an when i shut up an listen to her... she really knows ...it helps to talk to her... I dont really know who to talk to sometimes... maybe that's why i like my blog... because I am talking to anyone that is interested in listening... and if no one is out there... then i still get it off my chest...
I'm drowning, but I can see a floaty near by..maybe its one of those noodles... those things are so handy... I just gotta clear the daubery between me an the survival... my an the Lord...
It's just you an me, God... bring it on :o) I need all your loving...
Saturday, July 9, 2011
recent moments... the family all together
for the last 2 weeks -- Danny and I have been in Chelan, WA @ his parents house on Lake Chelan... google it, if you dont know what it looks like... for sure the most breath taking place i've been on this earth!
Libby an Mike came up-- an later Mike's gf joined the fun...
Everyday our friends rolled thru -- played airsoft with danny & mike, floated on the lake, or laid in the sun... It's so great to have that type of environment for a while...I'm even more grateful that Danny's parents are so warm an loving that they allow for visitors quite often, and even offer to feed them-- whether it was a planned drop by, or not...
I know sometimes it can be a bit much to have that many people over to your house at once, but they were so good about it.. :o) all they asked for was a few moments of just family time... and thats exactly what we got...
for the last 2-3 days, it was just the family...
it was the best 2-3 days i have had in a long long time...laying in the sun, playing in the water, sitting in a circle watching dad act out "Fankenstein" in the game of Guesstures,,,
I got to spend so much time with Libby- either driving around, at the bars, or just laying on a towel in the grass... amazing how much I miss her company-- and wit, already... " I just called to say hello!-- HeRrOw!" *hahahah* wishing I live closer to her, I have to just wait for our next visit...
Michael brought home his gf, Jana for the family to meet.. the woman is the sweetest woman... so soft spoken, but a person of her own self... young and excited about life still :o) much like me and everyone else i love in life :o) -- I feel as tho we hit it off, I hope we did at least... we did on my end of things :o) -- I know situations in life can throw some crazy curve balls at chya.. but you make the best out of any situation.. an thats exactly what we did... and I love her! I hope to see her again-- as i told her... w/ or w/o mikey-- I wanna see her!
Wine tasting, fireworks, home cooked meals, sitting around a table with a family that you love.... bestfriends making tie-dye shirts for the 4th of July... going to church for the 1st time in 4 mths... and most of all... being home after an adventure to St. Croix!
The last two weeks have been some of the best times.... now that it's time to get serious-- I pray that the Lord stays by my side... and helps in our paths-- as i know he does.. I have a job interview on wednesday.. for a job that i have been really excited about.. I pray that it is the right step for me....
my focus is a little sharper-- i have a short term goal- doesnt feel practical.. but i know i can do it... jsut a matter of taking the steps... just like our move to STX...
Happy to be home... LOVING our new home with Lynnie.. she did a GREAT job picking it out...
Makes me love the friends I have... they are one in a million.. makes me wonder why I ever put myself around people who dont care that they are in my life or not...
ON THAT NOTE!
Be a good friend.. be someone that you love... do what you can for anyone around you... become "you-centric, not me-centric" remember that extending an offer to help -- even if they dont take it, shows them that you care.... listen when they speak, and get that d*mn look off your face like you are thinking of the next thing you want to say-- during the entire time they are talking.. , When you rant-- listen to their rant, When you have an issue-- talk about it... and get over it...
I love the people in my life... but there are those who if I had to choose, based on the outline of their personality-- I wouldn't care to even know them....
WHICH BRINGS ME TO ANOTHER POINT---
Is my bubble made of mirror? Do I only see what I think I am? Am I a different person to others then I think I am???
How does one become humble? I ask the Lord all the time, when I catch myself being caddy-- HUMBLE HUMBLE HUMBLE... love, respect, honor each an every person you come across, becuz the Lord does.. and we should to..
but how do i become humble? do i just keep focusing on it?? keep asking for it??? does it eventually consume enough of my thoughts that I become a more considerate, loving individual????
at what point, does a persons TRUE personality change???
ANOTHER THOUGHT
I am just like everyone else.
I'm self-centered, I look at myself in a reflection of a glass window passing and say to myself "you're fat, why do you eat so much, ugh" ... or-- " i look nice today, i really like the way i did my hair"... just like every other girl... When I see a window, or a mirror coming up as I walk along-- I look down at my feet and deliberately not look.. stop being self absorbed.. stop thinking about yourself... (well, myself)... stop worrying about me... me me me.. me me me... why is it ALWAYS about me....
Lord I ask you to focus my attention on others... and love others... forget about myself, and love you.....
I do love you.... I do think of others... I do catch myself being "me-centric" and focus on being "you-centric..."
at what point-- does my "core-personality" actually change....????
at what point????
just some thoughts
gnight -glo
Libby an Mike came up-- an later Mike's gf joined the fun...
Everyday our friends rolled thru -- played airsoft with danny & mike, floated on the lake, or laid in the sun... It's so great to have that type of environment for a while...I'm even more grateful that Danny's parents are so warm an loving that they allow for visitors quite often, and even offer to feed them-- whether it was a planned drop by, or not...
I know sometimes it can be a bit much to have that many people over to your house at once, but they were so good about it.. :o) all they asked for was a few moments of just family time... and thats exactly what we got...
for the last 2-3 days, it was just the family...
it was the best 2-3 days i have had in a long long time...laying in the sun, playing in the water, sitting in a circle watching dad act out "Fankenstein" in the game of Guesstures,,,
I got to spend so much time with Libby- either driving around, at the bars, or just laying on a towel in the grass... amazing how much I miss her company-- and wit, already... " I just called to say hello!-- HeRrOw!" *hahahah* wishing I live closer to her, I have to just wait for our next visit...
Michael brought home his gf, Jana for the family to meet.. the woman is the sweetest woman... so soft spoken, but a person of her own self... young and excited about life still :o) much like me and everyone else i love in life :o) -- I feel as tho we hit it off, I hope we did at least... we did on my end of things :o) -- I know situations in life can throw some crazy curve balls at chya.. but you make the best out of any situation.. an thats exactly what we did... and I love her! I hope to see her again-- as i told her... w/ or w/o mikey-- I wanna see her!
Wine tasting, fireworks, home cooked meals, sitting around a table with a family that you love.... bestfriends making tie-dye shirts for the 4th of July... going to church for the 1st time in 4 mths... and most of all... being home after an adventure to St. Croix!
The last two weeks have been some of the best times.... now that it's time to get serious-- I pray that the Lord stays by my side... and helps in our paths-- as i know he does.. I have a job interview on wednesday.. for a job that i have been really excited about.. I pray that it is the right step for me....
my focus is a little sharper-- i have a short term goal- doesnt feel practical.. but i know i can do it... jsut a matter of taking the steps... just like our move to STX...
Happy to be home... LOVING our new home with Lynnie.. she did a GREAT job picking it out...
Makes me love the friends I have... they are one in a million.. makes me wonder why I ever put myself around people who dont care that they are in my life or not...
ON THAT NOTE!
Be a good friend.. be someone that you love... do what you can for anyone around you... become "you-centric, not me-centric" remember that extending an offer to help -- even if they dont take it, shows them that you care.... listen when they speak, and get that d*mn look off your face like you are thinking of the next thing you want to say-- during the entire time they are talking.. , When you rant-- listen to their rant, When you have an issue-- talk about it... and get over it...
I love the people in my life... but there are those who if I had to choose, based on the outline of their personality-- I wouldn't care to even know them....
WHICH BRINGS ME TO ANOTHER POINT---
Is my bubble made of mirror? Do I only see what I think I am? Am I a different person to others then I think I am???
How does one become humble? I ask the Lord all the time, when I catch myself being caddy-- HUMBLE HUMBLE HUMBLE... love, respect, honor each an every person you come across, becuz the Lord does.. and we should to..
but how do i become humble? do i just keep focusing on it?? keep asking for it??? does it eventually consume enough of my thoughts that I become a more considerate, loving individual????
at what point, does a persons TRUE personality change???
ANOTHER THOUGHT
I am just like everyone else.
I'm self-centered, I look at myself in a reflection of a glass window passing and say to myself "you're fat, why do you eat so much, ugh" ... or-- " i look nice today, i really like the way i did my hair"... just like every other girl... When I see a window, or a mirror coming up as I walk along-- I look down at my feet and deliberately not look.. stop being self absorbed.. stop thinking about yourself... (well, myself)... stop worrying about me... me me me.. me me me... why is it ALWAYS about me....
Lord I ask you to focus my attention on others... and love others... forget about myself, and love you.....
I do love you.... I do think of others... I do catch myself being "me-centric" and focus on being "you-centric..."
at what point-- does my "core-personality" actually change....????
at what point????
just some thoughts
gnight -glo
Saturday, July 2, 2011
Love.
i am a married woman.
Life is a certainty.
it is something that everyone longs for... something that we wish to see in its truest sense....
you long for it... love.. you wish for it.. its what consumes you..and when you dont have it- you imagine it...an when you have it... you change it
its the nature of the beast... when we are told we are beautiful every day we laugh at the comments because we done take the seriously... but when we are told once a month--- we laugh because we dont take them seriously....
hollow
i have so much more to say---- i promise... but, as i listen to the coyote's ----- hollow--- i wish to sleep.
Life is a certainty.
it is something that everyone longs for... something that we wish to see in its truest sense....
you long for it... love.. you wish for it.. its what consumes you..and when you dont have it- you imagine it...an when you have it... you change it
its the nature of the beast... when we are told we are beautiful every day we laugh at the comments because we done take the seriously... but when we are told once a month--- we laugh because we dont take them seriously....
hollow
i have so much more to say---- i promise... but, as i listen to the coyote's ----- hollow--- i wish to sleep.
Friday, June 24, 2011
perspectives.
we all go thru life viewing situations thru our own eyes.. but in any average situation there is normally more then just you involved...
So there is often times a side that maybe you dont see when you are evaluating the circumstance...
tonight was one of them!
I have so much to say, so much to SCREAM back... because OF COURSE my perspective is the correct way it should go down... but no. thats not how it is. an i stand there.. biting my tongue from correcting you, and ball up my fist from slapping you..
whatever... you say what you say.. i'll say what i say...
Life does happen for a reason-- just a matter of how you present it.
So there is often times a side that maybe you dont see when you are evaluating the circumstance...
tonight was one of them!
I have so much to say, so much to SCREAM back... because OF COURSE my perspective is the correct way it should go down... but no. thats not how it is. an i stand there.. biting my tongue from correcting you, and ball up my fist from slapping you..
whatever... you say what you say.. i'll say what i say...
Life does happen for a reason-- just a matter of how you present it.
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
copy.paste.
The beach it hot beneath my feet... But I've made my little cubby hole in the sand in which I use instead of a lawn chair.
About 87 degrees today an the caribbean water is cool, only when you are hot.
I live the cruzian life right now. I relax in the sun, without a care on mind, sipping my cruzian coconut rum an diet coke. 25% alcohol you say? Well I haven't noticed, as my cups are 1/2 n 1/2.
I'm reading a magazine; one the I've never seen before, Combat Arms... I found an article about a marine during desert storm... Naturally, even if I have no clue about weaponry- to the extent of acronyms, I must read the article, because he is my fellow brother. The 1st line strikes my interest as he states that he is from Grand Rapids, Michigan - a place I lived for a short period of dark times in my youth...
He's on a mission, traveling thru Iraq- to find artwork on tanks and hummers. The pit of my stomach warms an turns while I get a lump in my throat. There's something about the Marine Corps that I long for.. I long for the brotherhood, the Friday nights, an the friendships an memories you make on deployment. Yes, deployments are fun- unfortunately, my husband has a different perspective of deployments then I do, as he was a "real Marine" as I like to call him... But my memories are amazing..
I read these notes an stories from this former Marines, an can only imagine that his feelings are stronger then mine.
I miss the Corps. I miss it everyday. The 0645 formations, mandatory company PT for veterans day. I'd do anything to run with 3,000 other Marines on a mandatory order.
I love you marines.. An don't think for a second that I am not going to grow old like the man at the VFW talking about Charlie... N the boys... you will always be part of the fondest memories of my brian housing group...and part of my life that could never be replaced by the excitement that the corps brought to me...
About 87 degrees today an the caribbean water is cool, only when you are hot.
I live the cruzian life right now. I relax in the sun, without a care on mind, sipping my cruzian coconut rum an diet coke. 25% alcohol you say? Well I haven't noticed, as my cups are 1/2 n 1/2.
I'm reading a magazine; one the I've never seen before, Combat Arms... I found an article about a marine during desert storm... Naturally, even if I have no clue about weaponry- to the extent of acronyms, I must read the article, because he is my fellow brother. The 1st line strikes my interest as he states that he is from Grand Rapids, Michigan - a place I lived for a short period of dark times in my youth...
He's on a mission, traveling thru Iraq- to find artwork on tanks and hummers. The pit of my stomach warms an turns while I get a lump in my throat. There's something about the Marine Corps that I long for.. I long for the brotherhood, the Friday nights, an the friendships an memories you make on deployment. Yes, deployments are fun- unfortunately, my husband has a different perspective of deployments then I do, as he was a "real Marine" as I like to call him... But my memories are amazing..
I read these notes an stories from this former Marines, an can only imagine that his feelings are stronger then mine.
I miss the Corps. I miss it everyday. The 0645 formations, mandatory company PT for veterans day. I'd do anything to run with 3,000 other Marines on a mandatory order.
I love you marines.. An don't think for a second that I am not going to grow old like the man at the VFW talking about Charlie... N the boys... you will always be part of the fondest memories of my brian housing group...and part of my life that could never be replaced by the excitement that the corps brought to me...
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Nine Days & Counting.
109 days ago Danny and I landed in St. Croix, US Virgin Islands to live out my dream of the caribbean life I've longed for...
Without realizing it, fully- I have dreamt about this longer then I remember...
A shock at first, and then adjusting nicely to this island....
It's been such a great time and gotten to live the life of vacation for 4 mths now... and now... so excited to return to the states!
I am looking forward to driving on the right side of the road... the convenience of shopping... Having friends near by, and moving in with my best friend....
Curious as to how life will pan out--- but we know we want our family soon.... but how soon? Is there more that we want to do and explore?? are there more places to go now? that cant be put on hold for 18 years? what has to be done now.... that cant be done later???
Without realizing it, fully- I have dreamt about this longer then I remember...
A shock at first, and then adjusting nicely to this island....
It's been such a great time and gotten to live the life of vacation for 4 mths now... and now... so excited to return to the states!
I am looking forward to driving on the right side of the road... the convenience of shopping... Having friends near by, and moving in with my best friend....
Curious as to how life will pan out--- but we know we want our family soon.... but how soon? Is there more that we want to do and explore?? are there more places to go now? that cant be put on hold for 18 years? what has to be done now.... that cant be done later???
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Theres one hand in my pocket--- an the other has a ring on it
What's it mean to be a good wife?
am I a good wife? Are there other wives out there who don't come home grumpy because they forgot to have lunch an tale it out on their hubby?
What is the usual- an what classifies me as high maint. ? I don't want to clean to bottom of the freezer that has rotten meat juice festering...when the dishes are really bad--- sometimes I'm not in the mood...
Are there woman out there that are pleasant- all the time? Whom have the house clean everyday by the time he comes home?? With supper almost done?
I'm not even talking about Suzey Homemaker... Just woman that can maintain their extremes...
Wives that don't lose that sex drive after they are married-- an that focus all their attention to their husbands when he is talking- bcuz he does it for you...
When we notice there is something you'd like to change about yourself, how do you change? Becoming less talkative is not like quitting smoking. Learning patience for me would be comparable to sawing off a limb with a plastic spork while being caught on a camping trip...it's pretty much the hardest lesson to learn..
And when you pray for patience--- God doesn't GIVE u anything... But he gives you opportunities to practice patience--- an unless you are paying attention--- you don't realize this is a test-- an you fail miserably..
On that note--- what if this is all just a lie? A front. Telling myself that I am a certain way long enough--- will I eventually believe it, an change??
I want to be a good Christian... An I see myself failing... How does one control their own thoughts an mind-- or dreams for that matter.. Do I have to go live with the Monks to learn to quite my thoughts... Bcuz at any given time I am thinking of about 600 different topics it feels like..
Do marriage workshops really work? How long does it take for a person to actually change a "character-flaw"?
By all means- I'm not in a crisis--- just some things I'm thinking about...
How do I listen?
How do I talk less- an hear more---
In the book of James he says...
..." be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slower to anger..."
Isn't that a lesson we should all learn...
My Pastor once said-- he can always tell a person by how much they talk.. Normally a talker does just that... Talks the talk- an does little action... An a listener is quick to work...
I'm 25 years old, happily married the greatest man I've ever met..for 2 years and 1 month.. An this man listens... An he's patient with me... He is hard working... He's not moody when he's hungry... Doesn't get pissy with me when I go have fun while he has to work... He forgives me when I'm being s dumb drunk ( which I'm happy I don't drink like I used to)
How did I get so lucky to marry the man that I wish to learn from...
But why can't I learn from him-- another thing ice discovered-- woman get irritated when their spouse tries to teach them something....
Just some thoughts.. Leave a comment if you have answers ;0)
am I a good wife? Are there other wives out there who don't come home grumpy because they forgot to have lunch an tale it out on their hubby?
What is the usual- an what classifies me as high maint. ? I don't want to clean to bottom of the freezer that has rotten meat juice festering...when the dishes are really bad--- sometimes I'm not in the mood...
Are there woman out there that are pleasant- all the time? Whom have the house clean everyday by the time he comes home?? With supper almost done?
I'm not even talking about Suzey Homemaker... Just woman that can maintain their extremes...
Wives that don't lose that sex drive after they are married-- an that focus all their attention to their husbands when he is talking- bcuz he does it for you...
When we notice there is something you'd like to change about yourself, how do you change? Becoming less talkative is not like quitting smoking. Learning patience for me would be comparable to sawing off a limb with a plastic spork while being caught on a camping trip...it's pretty much the hardest lesson to learn..
And when you pray for patience--- God doesn't GIVE u anything... But he gives you opportunities to practice patience--- an unless you are paying attention--- you don't realize this is a test-- an you fail miserably..
On that note--- what if this is all just a lie? A front. Telling myself that I am a certain way long enough--- will I eventually believe it, an change??
I want to be a good Christian... An I see myself failing... How does one control their own thoughts an mind-- or dreams for that matter.. Do I have to go live with the Monks to learn to quite my thoughts... Bcuz at any given time I am thinking of about 600 different topics it feels like..
Do marriage workshops really work? How long does it take for a person to actually change a "character-flaw"?
By all means- I'm not in a crisis--- just some things I'm thinking about...
How do I listen?
How do I talk less- an hear more---
In the book of James he says...
..." be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slower to anger..."
Isn't that a lesson we should all learn...
My Pastor once said-- he can always tell a person by how much they talk.. Normally a talker does just that... Talks the talk- an does little action... An a listener is quick to work...
I'm 25 years old, happily married the greatest man I've ever met..for 2 years and 1 month.. An this man listens... An he's patient with me... He is hard working... He's not moody when he's hungry... Doesn't get pissy with me when I go have fun while he has to work... He forgives me when I'm being s dumb drunk ( which I'm happy I don't drink like I used to)
How did I get so lucky to marry the man that I wish to learn from...
But why can't I learn from him-- another thing ice discovered-- woman get irritated when their spouse tries to teach them something....
Just some thoughts.. Leave a comment if you have answers ;0)
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
...
Wow- I just wrote an entire blog via my iPhone completely exploiting my inner conceded self... An it got erased before I could post it...
Strange.
Strange.
Monday, May 23, 2011
meh.
Today I feel meh.
I am work 10 x's slower then normal.. but considering who is writing this blog--- the bar is set low for my set standard of work ethic..
We have bridal parties that come in... spend 40 $ of champagne and oj... an have 2 drinks an leave it here....
......
I feel hung over.. and i did everything i could to drink a ton of water last night....
didnt matter...
the effect are still the same.. at this rate i should have gotten wasted.. but- trying to practice my Christianity --- i am making an honest effort to control my consumption.. but sometimes--- i dont even notice and my bottle of red is empty.. ??? how did this happen???
rekindling old friendships is a skill that requires you to be able to have an interesting enough life currently to be able to talk about anything--- besides all the same stories from high school..
recently-- an old friend whom i have not cared for for years... do to insulting banter back an forth... we've started to chit chat again... an as i can ALMOST remember... there were reason behind the friendship in the beginning.. I like talking to this fellow.. only when he's being nice..
and then i wonder.. how did he get so smart? i never pictured him with lots of brains up there-- due to the fact of his extra curricular activities he indulged himself in... but he really is...
its kind of annoying-actually... because it just reminds myself that i'm retarded...
but just goes to show-- you can never judge a book by their cover....
on that note-- my day is coming to an end-- i've literally spent 6 hours on fb... someone shoot me..
ps- best part about my day... i found a new blog... yummysmells.blogspot.com
wonderful!
ta ta for now!
I am work 10 x's slower then normal.. but considering who is writing this blog--- the bar is set low for my set standard of work ethic..
We have bridal parties that come in... spend 40 $ of champagne and oj... an have 2 drinks an leave it here....
......
I feel hung over.. and i did everything i could to drink a ton of water last night....
didnt matter...
the effect are still the same.. at this rate i should have gotten wasted.. but- trying to practice my Christianity --- i am making an honest effort to control my consumption.. but sometimes--- i dont even notice and my bottle of red is empty.. ??? how did this happen???
rekindling old friendships is a skill that requires you to be able to have an interesting enough life currently to be able to talk about anything--- besides all the same stories from high school..
recently-- an old friend whom i have not cared for for years... do to insulting banter back an forth... we've started to chit chat again... an as i can ALMOST remember... there were reason behind the friendship in the beginning.. I like talking to this fellow.. only when he's being nice..
and then i wonder.. how did he get so smart? i never pictured him with lots of brains up there-- due to the fact of his extra curricular activities he indulged himself in... but he really is...
its kind of annoying-actually... because it just reminds myself that i'm retarded...
but just goes to show-- you can never judge a book by their cover....
on that note-- my day is coming to an end-- i've literally spent 6 hours on fb... someone shoot me..
ps- best part about my day... i found a new blog... yummysmells.blogspot.com
wonderful!
ta ta for now!
Thursday, May 19, 2011
**Must Do's** of STX -- for my Mel & Scott
In light of some very good friends friends of mine coming to St. Croix , USVI after we leave here... I decided to take the time to make a list of things that you must do while on island..
these are just a few of the favorites.. but after a week you should have a pretty good sense of what STX is all about and have a fulfilled trip!
most importantly-- remember.. just kick back, relax -- and go with the flow! that's what it's all about.. and drink plenty of the local rum.. don't work the ALC% is about 2% :o)
Love you both- and home you have a riot while you are down here!
***St. Croix Landmarks and History..
Google "St. Croix Sugar Mills" and click on images--gives you a pretty good idea of how cool they are :o)
***SCUBA -- St. Croix Scuba -- about $495.00 for your PADI scuba cert. Life long-- great diving here.. and a ton of fun! Ask for Erika Fisher (my roommate) or Clint Briggs for instructors...
***Fredricksted and Christiansted are the two city's on island.. Like I said earlier... C'sted is much larger and more shopping -- the boardwalk wraps around the 5 blocks of downtown and has some nice places to eat.. I recommend going to Angry Nate's for lunch sometimes and get the "Jerked Mahi Mahi wrap with mango aioli sauce" YUM YUM YUM!
***Brew pub is a nice place for drinks -- it's right next to The Mill that is also on the boardwalk.. normally live music playing.. not sure what will be open/playing during that time of year...
***Tide Pool review --- have not done it yet-- but have heard RAVE reviews!
***Point Udall - eastern most part of the US --- very cool.. I'll tag you in a photo of mine to see when we were there! very easy to get there!
***If nothing else-- you HAVE to leave with one of these.. both of you! Cruzan hook bracelet! - make sure you get it from Sonya's... its the original maker-- read the history.. she makes one for every hurricane too.. i have the basic hook..
***Crab races -- some local fun !
***Chenay Bay --- Mahi's is the little resturant on the beach there-- an they have .50$ buffalo wings on Thursday nights
here is there deals ---> Mahi's
***Rainforest-- kinda cool.. but just a rainforest.. STX Rainforest
***Cane Bay -- GREAT beach! my favorite on the island.. and when you are there.. you HAVE to order a "Lime in the Coconut" Carl is the bartender and he makes a great one.. if he is still there tell him Gloria "the passive aggressive Marine" sent you---
***Cruzan Rum Factory tour -- and last .. but CERTAINLY .. not least.. you must take a tour thru the Cruzan Rum factory.. for a mere 5$ or so-- you tour and sample as much as you want!
***I really hope this helps.. and feel free to call me if you need anything.. while preparing for this trip... or after you are already here... I'm only a phone call away
PS: AT&T works great down here... service almost everywhere.. Verizon charges you roaming fees...
these are just a few of the favorites.. but after a week you should have a pretty good sense of what STX is all about and have a fulfilled trip!
most importantly-- remember.. just kick back, relax -- and go with the flow! that's what it's all about.. and drink plenty of the local rum.. don't work the ALC% is about 2% :o)
Love you both- and home you have a riot while you are down here!
***St. Croix Landmarks and History..
Google "St. Croix Sugar Mills" and click on images--gives you a pretty good idea of how cool they are :o)
***SCUBA -- St. Croix Scuba -- about $495.00 for your PADI scuba cert. Life long-- great diving here.. and a ton of fun! Ask for Erika Fisher (my roommate) or Clint Briggs for instructors...
***Fredricksted and Christiansted are the two city's on island.. Like I said earlier... C'sted is much larger and more shopping -- the boardwalk wraps around the 5 blocks of downtown and has some nice places to eat.. I recommend going to Angry Nate's for lunch sometimes and get the "Jerked Mahi Mahi wrap with mango aioli sauce" YUM YUM YUM!
***Brew pub is a nice place for drinks -- it's right next to The Mill that is also on the boardwalk.. normally live music playing.. not sure what will be open/playing during that time of year...
***Tide Pool review --- have not done it yet-- but have heard RAVE reviews!
***Point Udall - eastern most part of the US --- very cool.. I'll tag you in a photo of mine to see when we were there! very easy to get there!
***If nothing else-- you HAVE to leave with one of these.. both of you! Cruzan hook bracelet! - make sure you get it from Sonya's... its the original maker-- read the history.. she makes one for every hurricane too.. i have the basic hook..
***Crab races -- some local fun !
***Chenay Bay --- Mahi's is the little resturant on the beach there-- an they have .50$ buffalo wings on Thursday nights
here is there deals ---> Mahi's
***Rainforest-- kinda cool.. but just a rainforest.. STX Rainforest
***Cane Bay -- GREAT beach! my favorite on the island.. and when you are there.. you HAVE to order a "Lime in the Coconut" Carl is the bartender and he makes a great one.. if he is still there tell him Gloria "the passive aggressive Marine" sent you---
***Cruzan Rum Factory tour -- and last .. but CERTAINLY .. not least.. you must take a tour thru the Cruzan Rum factory.. for a mere 5$ or so-- you tour and sample as much as you want!
***I really hope this helps.. and feel free to call me if you need anything.. while preparing for this trip... or after you are already here... I'm only a phone call away
PS: AT&T works great down here... service almost everywhere.. Verizon charges you roaming fees...
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Living w/in your means- but beyond your limits.
Ever catch yourself sitting there.... maybe on the living room floor, watching your child crawl around-- and your zoned in on the one piece of carpet... at work typing an email ---an ur gazing out the window.... sitting in a waiting room--- and the grout between the tiles captivates your stare....
and you can't help but feel this overwhelming desire of something more??? something bigger???
Limits that are supposed to be pushed.. walls that you should break down....
You know there is more to what you are doing...
I'm not talking about regretting where you are.. I'm talking about taking the next step into what's going to scare you.. because what we are unfamiliar with... does just that--- scare us.
but is that not the scare that we are missing-- as we zone out with that pit of your stomach burning with desire??
is this something that will always happen to us? or is it something we should follow?
do we ignore it? or do we stand up and start running...
but run to what? just run till you find a challenge??
I feel like there is something more....
I don't even know what it is??
Is it more school?? (i hope not)
is it my spa that i want to build someday????
weight i want to loose?
a body i want to tone??
is it a desire to take charge of the areas that i feel are out of control? or the desire to start somthing that i never thought i would have the guts to do...
I don't know what it is today...
but i think i am going to focus on this feeling...
maybe it will lead me to my next adventure...
and you can't help but feel this overwhelming desire of something more??? something bigger???
Limits that are supposed to be pushed.. walls that you should break down....
You know there is more to what you are doing...
I'm not talking about regretting where you are.. I'm talking about taking the next step into what's going to scare you.. because what we are unfamiliar with... does just that--- scare us.
but is that not the scare that we are missing-- as we zone out with that pit of your stomach burning with desire??
is this something that will always happen to us? or is it something we should follow?
do we ignore it? or do we stand up and start running...
but run to what? just run till you find a challenge??
I feel like there is something more....
I don't even know what it is??
Is it more school?? (i hope not)
is it my spa that i want to build someday????
weight i want to loose?
a body i want to tone??
is it a desire to take charge of the areas that i feel are out of control? or the desire to start somthing that i never thought i would have the guts to do...
I don't know what it is today...
but i think i am going to focus on this feeling...
maybe it will lead me to my next adventure...
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
I. FEEL. WONDERFUL!
I AM NOT SURE WHAT IT IS ABOUT TODAY-- BUT I AM JUST SO HAPPY!
...
ya know--- most of you know me... and if you are paying any attention... like i was trying to this morning...I seem to be really really really happy...
I dont know if it was the move... if its my marriage, family, life, freedom, the desire to do anything i want to do.. and do it???
maybe a mix of all of them.. but i have just been feeling very blessed in life..
We recently (last week) moved from the little studio down here into a 2 BR apartment with a girl i met down here..( she was my scuba instructor.. and shes amazing.. not just amazing.. but the type of amazing that when you meet someone you know instantly that you should be friends with them.... ) and that's how it is...
so- we moved into this apartment.. on the boardwalk-- down town on the water... beautiful... love it...
Makes me wonder if we would have moved in here 1st, would my opinion of STX be different? would I be okay with staying down here for a year.... instead of leaving in June??? but when are we leaving?? Well- there are a few reasons..
the very 1st one was.. because I was scared.. something new and different and living where you have never been before, theres a slight amount of "movers remorse" as I call it. ...or maybe " bit of more then you can chew - remorse" so that was the enitial shock... and it was pretty stressfull.. then we relaxed and settled in a little bit..
then it came down to learning how the town / island shuts down in the summer time.. no one really travels down here after june/july and i thought-- well, i wont be able to make a living down here....
then there came the whole "family" thing... I want to start a family.. an be close to danny's family... well in order to have / start our family- there are things that I need to do 1st... I need to set up our retirement.. I need to settle in somewhere long enough to make enough money, that i can actually have insurance.. inorder to do that, i need to build a cliental... in order to do that , i have to sit still for a few years..
so- i am not sure what has to be done.. but I figure this was an AMAZING time in our life.. and a great adventure! I will never be 50 years old and say , "man- i wish i could have moved to the virgin islands when i had the chance..." actually- 90 % of the choices i make.. the deciding factor is just that..will i ever get another chance to do this??? yes/no?? doesnt frankly matter.. cuz.. IM DOING IT!
you are the sum total of all choices you make in life--- i cant preach this enough... if you dont like where you are... CHANGE IT! do something else! it takes nothing! nothing at all.. and as my father always says.. "if there's a will.. there's a man named Bill"..... so what that means to me-- is that you can make anything happen and the only challenging part is to leave you comfort zone- and if you look at it in that light-- that seems like a pretty silly reason not to do something...
even if you make the choice-- an decide its not what you wanted.. or expected.. there is no shame on trying something else..
I feel like the colors of my life are just a little bit brighter today....
The wind is a little more cooler...
and this coffee is... well, amazing.
I wonder how many people I actually impact????
really this is just a blog of my rants/raves... gabbing on about my life and how happy I am... some what of a personal journal that I let me exposed to anyone that really cares... hence the title... is there really people out there that read what nonsense I have to say and take it into consideration??? as if they will wake up tomorrow with an better out look on life??? with a desire to change their life....
i dunno... i guess we'll never know what kind of waves come from our ripples...
-glo
...
ya know--- most of you know me... and if you are paying any attention... like i was trying to this morning...I seem to be really really really happy...
I dont know if it was the move... if its my marriage, family, life, freedom, the desire to do anything i want to do.. and do it???
maybe a mix of all of them.. but i have just been feeling very blessed in life..
We recently (last week) moved from the little studio down here into a 2 BR apartment with a girl i met down here..( she was my scuba instructor.. and shes amazing.. not just amazing.. but the type of amazing that when you meet someone you know instantly that you should be friends with them.... ) and that's how it is...
so- we moved into this apartment.. on the boardwalk-- down town on the water... beautiful... love it...
Makes me wonder if we would have moved in here 1st, would my opinion of STX be different? would I be okay with staying down here for a year.... instead of leaving in June??? but when are we leaving?? Well- there are a few reasons..
the very 1st one was.. because I was scared.. something new and different and living where you have never been before, theres a slight amount of "movers remorse" as I call it. ...or maybe " bit of more then you can chew - remorse" so that was the enitial shock... and it was pretty stressfull.. then we relaxed and settled in a little bit..
then it came down to learning how the town / island shuts down in the summer time.. no one really travels down here after june/july and i thought-- well, i wont be able to make a living down here....
then there came the whole "family" thing... I want to start a family.. an be close to danny's family... well in order to have / start our family- there are things that I need to do 1st... I need to set up our retirement.. I need to settle in somewhere long enough to make enough money, that i can actually have insurance.. inorder to do that, i need to build a cliental... in order to do that , i have to sit still for a few years..
so- i am not sure what has to be done.. but I figure this was an AMAZING time in our life.. and a great adventure! I will never be 50 years old and say , "man- i wish i could have moved to the virgin islands when i had the chance..." actually- 90 % of the choices i make.. the deciding factor is just that..will i ever get another chance to do this??? yes/no?? doesnt frankly matter.. cuz.. IM DOING IT!
you are the sum total of all choices you make in life--- i cant preach this enough... if you dont like where you are... CHANGE IT! do something else! it takes nothing! nothing at all.. and as my father always says.. "if there's a will.. there's a man named Bill"..... so what that means to me-- is that you can make anything happen and the only challenging part is to leave you comfort zone- and if you look at it in that light-- that seems like a pretty silly reason not to do something...
even if you make the choice-- an decide its not what you wanted.. or expected.. there is no shame on trying something else..
I feel like the colors of my life are just a little bit brighter today....
The wind is a little more cooler...
and this coffee is... well, amazing.
I wonder how many people I actually impact????
really this is just a blog of my rants/raves... gabbing on about my life and how happy I am... some what of a personal journal that I let me exposed to anyone that really cares... hence the title... is there really people out there that read what nonsense I have to say and take it into consideration??? as if they will wake up tomorrow with an better out look on life??? with a desire to change their life....
i dunno... i guess we'll never know what kind of waves come from our ripples...
-glo
Friday, March 11, 2011
Honduras
Today I leave for my very 1st missions trip! I am meeting my church from Seattle @ the Houston airport, and we head out to Honduras! We are building a family of 5 ( I think) a new home! I'm very excited!
My best friend Kimberly Rowlands (now Howdyshell) first told me about mission trips YEARS ago, when she was in her youth group, and would travel all over the world helping people out who had very little.
I have always been interested in this, but never new much about it, and didn't belong to a church that I loved as much as I do this one.
Even tho my church is in Seattle, I can't wait till we move back and I can be apart of it again...
Last fall they had the sign ups for this trip and my other best friend Lynnie was all for it too! So, together we are going for very different reasons, but the base of it all is to work in the heart of the Lord and touch peoples lives whom may not have as much as we do... To give them a piece of Christ, and tell them what he's all about, and the love he has to give..
I will have more information after I get back, and can't wait to share with you all everything I'll have learned and had the wonderful opportunity to be apart of.
I may not have always lived the life of a good Christian... actually, I know I haven't!
I never, didn't- know who he was and what he did for me...
I always knew what I was doing was wrong, when i did it...
But now, I am so happy and proud to be making steps in the right direction. Living a life closer to him has been the biggest blessing of my life.
Each day as I lay my head down at night, I ask God for more guidance to live a more pure life that I am..
and each day, the Lord blesses me with the oxygen in my lungs, and the chance to follow in his ways..
I'm still not a "perfect Christian" --- but who is???
besides, Jesus Christ...
but I can tell you one thing.... I'm trying :o)
See y'all in 10 days!
My best friend Kimberly Rowlands (now Howdyshell) first told me about mission trips YEARS ago, when she was in her youth group, and would travel all over the world helping people out who had very little.
I have always been interested in this, but never new much about it, and didn't belong to a church that I loved as much as I do this one.
Even tho my church is in Seattle, I can't wait till we move back and I can be apart of it again...
Last fall they had the sign ups for this trip and my other best friend Lynnie was all for it too! So, together we are going for very different reasons, but the base of it all is to work in the heart of the Lord and touch peoples lives whom may not have as much as we do... To give them a piece of Christ, and tell them what he's all about, and the love he has to give..
I will have more information after I get back, and can't wait to share with you all everything I'll have learned and had the wonderful opportunity to be apart of.
I may not have always lived the life of a good Christian... actually, I know I haven't!
I never, didn't- know who he was and what he did for me...
I always knew what I was doing was wrong, when i did it...
But now, I am so happy and proud to be making steps in the right direction. Living a life closer to him has been the biggest blessing of my life.
Each day as I lay my head down at night, I ask God for more guidance to live a more pure life that I am..
and each day, the Lord blesses me with the oxygen in my lungs, and the chance to follow in his ways..
I'm still not a "perfect Christian" --- but who is???
besides, Jesus Christ...
but I can tell you one thing.... I'm trying :o)
See y'all in 10 days!
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Sunshine, and dreams...
So, here we are... Living in St. Croix, US Virgin Islands... The most far east island part of the United States.. only 1,200sum miles north of the equator.. and the sun is HOT!
We packed up and headed out for a journey of dreams. Well, just a dream of mine, but fortunately enough I have a husband whom loves me a whole lot and agreed to my plans.. which all couldn't have been possible with out his love and support ..
Let me start off my telling you all that living in paradise is WAY different then visiting, paradise...
the first week was more of a shock than anything else. Filled with anxiety and nervousness, I was worried everyday as to if I made the right choice or not...
After the first week past, and we are not settling nicely into week number three, I feel much better and comfortable with our surroundings. Danny has been more helpful and comforting then I could have ever imagined, and the love he has for me, as I sat there having a nervous break down, he calmed and soothed my nerves, reminding me that the Lord will never leave us.. And if this was my life dream to live here for a bit, then I should stop panicing and just enjoy the time while we are here...
Short term goals are how I've lived my life. I don't know how my experience in the Marine Corps would have gone if I didn't live leave date to leave date...
I also never wanted to be a woman that said, "I'm going to go here, I'm going to do that, I am gunna blah blah blah ... " and ends up sitting on her rump at home just imagining of what it would be like... Even if we are here for 2 mths, I still did it.. I still followed thru...
I feel as tho you never really know what a dream would be like, until you set out and did it.. Sometimes, it's not what you expected, and it's a great thing that you did it... So you know! So you know that's not what you want.. So you don't grow old saying "couldda ,shouldda, wouldda..." You grow old an say... Well , we planned accordingly and did everything we wanted to, when the time permitted us to!
Along this short little trip, I've been hearing a few good words to live by...
"I'd rather regret something I did, rather then something I never tried to do..."
a lot of people dont want to have any regrets in life... but sometimes there are periods of time where you go, "crap--- rewind!" --- an in those cases, you gotta tell yourself... at least i did it! at least i know, now!
and the other one, my wonderful mother-in-law told me in response to an email i sent her, where I was worried and scared about this journey... she said..
"could you imagine what the world would be like, if everyone had these really good ideas, and plans, but never pursued them?
How true is that??? where would we be?
Even tho it's still young in this move, I am so happy and blessed for the choice we made.. for the adventure we took, for the lessons we are learning... everyday brings a new lesson...
I know now, that I love Seattle! that i can't wait to go back! and I am planning on settling.. For this was my last big adventure I wanted to do before we had babies... Not to say that life ends at children, but all who has them.. can you agree it's a little more difficult???
SO, I wanna stick it out for a few more months.. maybe till June... life thru the winter season and work while it's busy.. and maybe head on back home to Seattle, to really start to settle down..maybe.. only Lord knows what we are doing next :o)
But we are starting our big list of all the things we wanna do before we leave!
What a wonderful life the Lord has given us...
pS- my advice to anyone reading.... may a list of short term goals... something feasible, or maybe not feasible... and find away to make that goal...
Our next big adventure! Is going to be a back backing trip thru Ireland... or Europe.. somewhere over there!
ta- ta for now, guys!
I'll try to keep you updated!
<3>
Friday, February 11, 2011
A moment to yourself...
I just had the nicest bath-a woman's bath- the one where you wait for the warm water to open all your pours, exfoliate your skin real well-- then you shave using actual shave cream, and shave your legs three times to make them as smooth as possible...
then you cleansed your face, put a masque on -- lay back an let it do it's magic..
then exfoliated .
.... shampooed my hair twice and conditioned it three times.. then you get out..
and apply a series of night time solutions to prevent wrinkles, deminision my dark circles, rejuvinate and moisturize... *BIG SIGH* I feel GREAT!
It was time to take a bath... The tension of pure excitement building needed to be relieved...
I laid there day dreaming about laying on the beach....
Walking to work...
taking a bicycle ride thru the little island...
Dancing under the stars in the warm tropic night, w/ my husband...
Sipping a cocktail, an feeling the warm sun on your face..
Especially days like today... damp, cold and just gloomy...
tonight...was for sure a moment to myself...
Monday, February 7, 2011
Random thoughts, By Jack Hand... Gloria Gilli.... Sherer
I like Washington state for their beautiful lush scenery , big mountains that surround the perimeter of this big city.. and the fact that you can see Bald Eagles flying freely here....
Gizmo goes to a knew how this week... that makes me sad
but, she'll be a farm cat.. that makes me happy..
we need to get busy with the packing... that gives me anxiety....
i'm pretty happy where i am in life.. that makes me happy...
as my father always says...
You are the sum of all choices you've made in life...
that is all for now.
Monday, January 24, 2011
Red?
SO- Just like most woman in life... with a new adventure comes, NEW HAIR!
I've decided to cut it back off, and now I am coloring it red!
So exciting! Well, I guess not for anyone but myself....
It's weird how woman often associate the length of their hair, with stages of life...
I think after every relationship, I ended up cutting off my hair- Like it was my way to mentally cut that outta my life??
So, for the big move, of course - the hair had to go..
Interesting...
I feel like making something.. don't really know what.. and dont really wanna go spend the money of the materials to make anything.. so i should just look around and see what I can construct...
I finished Danny's quilt last week... and it ROCKS!
whats next??
My muse ... it's always working...
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Moving, Moving, MoViNg!!!!!!
Today is the 1st day of many to come!
I opened and filled a box !
Never thought that a useless phonebook (these days, at least) would come in so much handy, as it does to rip out pages, and wrap my little nick nacks! Just keep in mind, to wash your hands after because the ink gets EvRyWhErE! (as I can see now as I glance at my white (now grey) key board! haha
The excitement started at the pit of my stomach.. A feeling of anxiety--- waiting for the new change, new adventure, new beginning (temporary beginning!) The feeling of wait... waiting for a bit step...
And then it slowly creeps into my heart... where it palpitates with happiness and bliss! The feeling of courageousness to pack up and leave... to go to a place I have never been before...
and then confidence, because I know my Lord and my husband are right there to walk me thru it... to take some of the weight of stress off.. and to join me in this new adventure....
The more I think about it, the faster my hands move... the quicker I wrap, pack, and tape! As if the faster I do it today, will somehow bump the move date closer...
Church's message this session is to create margin in your life.....
There is so much common - WONDERFUL- sense to that.....
When you are prepared and two steps ahead-- the stress doesn't build.... the feeling of forgetting something, of never being ontop of things... room for marginal error is the best step to make....
I sit here-- looking around our little apartment... # 2 of many to come... white walls are a symbol of change to me... they are boring and dull, lifeless, w/o character.. but they stand for change in my mind... Moving into my 1st barracks room, knowing that I am finally on my own, confined to 4 walls of solitude and adulthood.. those were my walls.. my walls of the United States Marine Corps... and as they were built up with design, they were taken down with change.. one deployment to another, one country to another, one room mate to another.... until --- the final move to my 1st apartment with my soul mate... It was a sad day for me, but exciting.. I knew I was leaving behind wonderful memories of barracks life... a HUGE apartment, full of friends...
and on into an empty apartment.. waiting to be filled with new memories of a new marriage, life, love, excitement... and whereas that apartment was stripped bare from memories, this one was built.... and within a year.. this one is taken down, packed up, and will be stored... until another day when life permits us to unpack these boxes of life.....
Maybe the next time we pack, it'll be filled with baby clothes, booties, and binkies (or whatever they are called)...
Who knows where the next move will take us...
I'm just so excited to be making this one....
Lord, be with us.... as we move forward... :o)
I opened and filled a box !
Never thought that a useless phonebook (these days, at least) would come in so much handy, as it does to rip out pages, and wrap my little nick nacks! Just keep in mind, to wash your hands after because the ink gets EvRyWhErE! (as I can see now as I glance at my white (now grey) key board! haha
The excitement started at the pit of my stomach.. A feeling of anxiety--- waiting for the new change, new adventure, new beginning (temporary beginning!) The feeling of wait... waiting for a bit step...
And then it slowly creeps into my heart... where it palpitates with happiness and bliss! The feeling of courageousness to pack up and leave... to go to a place I have never been before...
and then confidence, because I know my Lord and my husband are right there to walk me thru it... to take some of the weight of stress off.. and to join me in this new adventure....
The more I think about it, the faster my hands move... the quicker I wrap, pack, and tape! As if the faster I do it today, will somehow bump the move date closer...
Church's message this session is to create margin in your life.....
There is so much common - WONDERFUL- sense to that.....
When you are prepared and two steps ahead-- the stress doesn't build.... the feeling of forgetting something, of never being ontop of things... room for marginal error is the best step to make....
I sit here-- looking around our little apartment... # 2 of many to come... white walls are a symbol of change to me... they are boring and dull, lifeless, w/o character.. but they stand for change in my mind... Moving into my 1st barracks room, knowing that I am finally on my own, confined to 4 walls of solitude and adulthood.. those were my walls.. my walls of the United States Marine Corps... and as they were built up with design, they were taken down with change.. one deployment to another, one country to another, one room mate to another.... until --- the final move to my 1st apartment with my soul mate... It was a sad day for me, but exciting.. I knew I was leaving behind wonderful memories of barracks life... a HUGE apartment, full of friends...
and on into an empty apartment.. waiting to be filled with new memories of a new marriage, life, love, excitement... and whereas that apartment was stripped bare from memories, this one was built.... and within a year.. this one is taken down, packed up, and will be stored... until another day when life permits us to unpack these boxes of life.....
Maybe the next time we pack, it'll be filled with baby clothes, booties, and binkies (or whatever they are called)...
Who knows where the next move will take us...
I'm just so excited to be making this one....
Lord, be with us.... as we move forward... :o)
Friday, January 7, 2011
what a GREAT day!!
I had such a wonderful, fantastic, great day today!
Started off with a 9am color followed by a Brazilian Blowout, which she loved so much and the color looked GREAT on her!
Then, a full 2 tone highlight (which took me FOREVER!) and cut, and SHE LOVED IT!!
then to wrap up my 10 hour day, I had a Brazilian Blowout on a gal with African American type hair.. and she LOVED it.. and was speechless! she'd never seen her hair look so beautiful, silky, shiny, and healthy!
I just LOVE when my clients are so happy, and they feel so good!
I love that I get to help people feel so good!
*sigh*
So finally, I make it home.. 10 hours later-- my back makes me want to cry, my feet at so sore, and the silence of my home is so relaxing.. a little dinner, and a big glass of wine...
Can't get much better than this!
Sunday, January 2, 2011
Moving Sale
I have two micro fiber couches (off white-ish) - 200 for sofa, 100 for loveseat
5 shelf book shelf- black - great condition 45$
Fullsize bed, box spring, frame- 80$
coffee table / two side tables - 60$
Dresser w/ 8 drawers- 3 minnie drawers ... 80$
and anything else you need!
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