coffee in the morning---

Got up at 0530 today-- went to the gym.. so far so good- Lynnie and I are keeping a great pace, routine, and schedule...

I laugh because I'd drag myself to the gym the last 4 years an to PT.. but since I've been out- I'm so eager to be there and the desire to keep a good sched is so strong...

today I was going to roll over and do it at lunch.. (keep in mind, i dont have to be up till 1000 for class... so this is all for Lynnie :o) - an myself)

But after I text her and we agreed to go during chow, I found a burst of energy, and luckily she was feeling it too- so we met up anyway...

I find it funny that on some days it takes some convincing to get myself outta bed that early on my own terms.. So I tell myself.. "Self, you can go back to your PRECIOUS sleep in an hour- you'll be right back here, like you never left"..

and i know DAMN WELL.. that i'm not going back to bed..

I get home, and I am a ball of energy and excitement!

I made myself a pot of coffee (real men drink black coffee, just remember that when you sissy girls get your 9 scoops of sugar an calories !)

But the smell consumes my little apartment and I feel instantly relaxed...

Flash backs of last winter come rushing in like a fleet of horses...

-- my shop got introuble so we had to be in at 0600- but my gunny didnt trust us , so we did the whole 15 pri routine... well after cutting it close a few times, i started to get up at 0500 an be at work by sometimes qtr to 6... Leaving only me, the high pri marine from midcrew and the civilians....

I'd fill my cup full of black coffee and sit in the back office with the civi's and listen to the stories.. most of them are retired an working for CACI the last 15 years...

I miss em/ I miss em all....

So- now, I have to get ready for school.. b/c that's my next goal..

Goals are what get you thru in life.. and when they are too big to wrap your mind around.. say it like my father does "Glo, how do you eat an elephant? ... One bite at a time...."

So this is my bite-- one class at a time.. one day at a time..

Life- i'll see ya when I meet up with ya.. but I got too much to think about to worry about you right now :)- i'm just gunna live ya today :)

Have a great day guys!

I'm sure i'll think of something else that i KNOW you are all just DYING to read! haha

rich at heart...

Sometime I wish I had a ton of money..

I'd like to be able to send those I love random acts of kindness to bring up their mood for the day.. if it's just for one day- that's one day they can feel the love I have for them...

I wanna send my friends a big bouquet of flowers, or a jar of cookies.. or something special that will make 'em smile...

maybe someday...

inventing...

I find myself in a daze of wanting to do things.. always.. something bigger- something brighter-- and something to occupy my over creative mind..

I use the word "over creative" loosely- bcuz I could think of a million things, but too lazy to follow thru with them..

I find myself on the etsy.com website thinking of all the cool things I could make or buy etc..

but the truth is, i'm too much like my damn mom- and won't follow thru with any brilliant idea I have..

so here i sit, frustrated and irritated w/ myself for being and "imagine-ator"

w/ no drive to make the next step..

what does it take for me to do something, anything- what will I have to do inorder to make the next step??

FUDGE!

LOOKING BACK

So as life goes on we always look back at prior decades and say.. "WHAT WERE WE THINKING?!"

i.e. MC hammer pants, scrunchy hair barrettes, mullets, neon colors, teased bangs etc..

and after watching HSN for an hour on these BRAND NEW Ed Hardy shoes that are just THE COOLEST THING OUT THERE!.. I couldn't help but have a, "flash FWD" into time and see us looking back at these hot pink glittery shoes that appear to have cartoons drawn on them, and just laugh at what we thought was THE COOLEST thing back in 2010ish..

haha

Mark my words.. Ed Hardy will be like scrunchy socks and neon spandex.. ( oh wait, 1/2 these items are already coming back!! NOOOOO!!! )

LOL

- not that i am bias, bcuz I truly hate Ed Hardy - but I aside from that, I can just see where this one is going.. haha

age and drinking...

I went out drinking the other night when we saw The Gaslight Anthem...

I made an ass outta myself once again and lived the next 24 hours in a deep stage of regret and embarrassment.. I'm not quite sure what's happened to me in the past few years..

when drinking and being a good memory used to be my daily gig, and now I argue, and act ridiculous when ever I'm drunk... ???

I told Danny I don't want to drink with him anymore for that reason... We don't have fun.

I act like an ass, he gets upset with me.. then my drunk ass tries to rationalize with him my actions.. and then the next day I spend it feeling terrible and apologizing nonstop..

And to top it all off, my husband has the biggest heart.. he forgives an forgets by the time morning comes around (which almost makes me feel worse)

.....

I say that I quite drinking when we got married and I was in NC and he was in Cali..

I went from 4 to 5 times a week of being a drunk slob, to maybe a friday evening in the Barracks with my best friend sitting in front of our door sharing a bottle of wine....

I really like the change and not being hung over every morning...

But, now if I do drink occasionally- it's just rediculous, and I'm a dumb ass....

I have to remind myself to cut myself off- bcuz that look of disappointment on Danny's face is pretty much the worse feeling ever....

I love you MuNkY

don't wait to long to come home.. i will leave the front light on...

I was feeling silly when I woke up, well not silly- more like groggy and in pain (damn bed!)

Then I got excited because I get to go to my first concert in YEARS tonight, and its The Gaslight Anthem.. an if you don't know who they are, you should really look them up.. I love love LOVE them...

Then I started lookin' thru photos and began to miss the Marine Corps....

and now i'm feeling nostalgic.. and I don't wanna be...

The summer is ending, and the looming grey skies are slowing lurking in for the season.. and I'm ready for 'em!

But the trick to surviving nasty weather in long periods of time... is not to intentionally bring yourself down.. and looking at pictures ALWAYS does it to me..

So - the moral of today- don't look at photos!

Danny and I are talking about moving..

Maybe I'll focus on that :o)