Seattle has been hit with some major snow this last week... in some areas it was historical amounts.... What I find absolutely adorable is that no matter the age of an individual... the snow always brings the child out... I was driving thru my neighborhood and I saw what looked like grandparents out with their grandchildren... and the smile on the grandpa's face as you held the sled in his hand cheering on his grandkids was pretty priceless... Maybe it's just cause we dont get a lot of snow here, but it did give me a nice laugh... I also love that everybody comes out of the woodwork... I didnt know we had so many kids in the surrounding area.. and they were ALL at the park.. sliding down the smallest snow covered hill till the white was muddy... Today when we woke up, the warm air had come in over night and melted all the snow away.. it was good while we had it.. this past week made me feel like I was back home again.. only instead of Maple trees an Pines covered in snow, there are Evergreens... I'm still on the search of what I want to do.. there is a slight worry in the back of my mind that I will be going to school forever because I just wont be able to decide...

always starving for more.

Have we chosen the path of life in which we were meant for? How do we know this is what will make us happy? Could I have been happier choosing something else? I often find myself doing something I enjoy; like today for example... I sauteed some mushrooms, onions, cherry tomatoes and garlic together, and thru them on a toasted wheat wrap, where I cut up some grilled chicken and wilted spinach leaves, an had a spicy mustard dressing.. it tasted amazing, and I was entirely pleased with the choice of spices I had made.. While making Lynnie and me dinner I thought, " should I had gone to culinary school instead of cosmetology school?" which brings me to my next question.. is it too late? I wish I could have packed up an moved to some mountain an worked the lifts all winter an just done the "snow bum" thing.. saved my money, bought fewer items that tie me down, and travel more... should I had stayed in? always questions on my mind.. but isnt it on everyones? is that something that will always be? do we ever reach a period of time where we are okay with the path we chose? I feel like I will do something big someday! I'm going to achieve something GREAT!... my thoughts and goals are always dreaming of something better... is it just foolish talk? because... i am after all... just a dreamer..... I dream all day... all night... in the morning when my phone vibrates as the morning emails start to fill my junk box.. i lay with my eyes half open, not quite fully awake... but awake enough to day dream about the adventures and excitement I long for... shampooing my hair, when i get a client that isn't very talkative... driving home in my car w/o a stereo... an as I lay in bed at night slowly drifting off as I listen to the breath of my sleeping husband beside me.... I'm always dreaming... I pick a topic.. lets say its this idea of a café I have... i start with the items on my menu.. how much i would charge... i think about my favorite snakes or sandwiches, maybe a healthy cafe? maybe comfort foods... what would I paint the walls? i want a warm, welcoming feeling, maybe deep burgundy... internet access? leather couches? maybe a room to have a large screen TV so people can come in an pick a movie to watch?? I dream every moment I am not engaged in an active conversation, or occupied by time consuming nonsense (i.e. fb) Do we forever feel like there is something else out there for us? Is curiosity always consuming our thoughts? Will there every be a time that I look at my life an say I have made the right choices, and I am happy where I am? Or will I always starve for growth? Isn't it growth that keeps up alive, and productive? Instead of feeling like I am not doing enough, should i just recognize yearning for more is what will forever keep me in a forward perpetual motion and that its a good way of life? But would that be satisfying? or would I feel like I didnt amount to enough...